For You

So...... hello.

Wow I have been depressing. I hate that part of me but it's good that it's not like that now. Whne I wake up this morning feeling so light, the first thing I wanted to do was message or call my friends. Then I realize my phone died, and my charger, unfortunately went missing again.

So dear friends who knew me, since only people who really are my closest friends actually knew about this blog, thank you for putting up with me.

Also to my sisters. I don't really know how to say sweet words but you two probably know what I wanted to express.

I love you all and that'll never change.

Detached

Sometimes I feel detached. I have to remind myself that my brother is my brother, my mother is my mother, my sister is my sister and the like.

Small Surprise

My baby cousin, Dan told me “Auntie, don’t give up”. Then he chant it repeatedly, playing I’m not sure what. I don’t know which cartoon he watched, but that took me by surprise.

Even a kid gave me life hints. Or was I hearing things?

A dream to End

I’ve been dreaming of death.

I’ve always been dreaming about it actually. I dreamt of my grandparents’ death, which was a nightmare until my late grandfather actually died. When I found out that those nightmares didn’t came true, just that death is inevitable, the dreams became just unpleasant visits. I’ve also been dreaming about the death of my own parents, my siblings, and my friends. These people are those that I do care about, so it’s disturbing to see them die one night, and seeing them alive the next.