New Day New New and New?

 

So hmmm where did I left you guys off?

The Ego of a Passionate Reader

Reading isn’t studying. They’re just for fun.

-Twenty Faces-

(The Daughter of Twenty Faces)

          Back when I was a brat, I used to convince myself that I read because I love studying (or maybe just trying to convince myself that I'm smart, and all smart people read).
My surroundings helped that falsehood too.

Nijuu Mensou no Musume (TV 2008) | Opening 【OP】 | 『Kasumi』 by 369 Miroku

'霞' Kasumi | Mist by 369 Miroku ..................................................

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The part of the song that I really like (basically verses that will not get out of my head):

Can't Be Tamed [AMV] Kaitou Kid

For those who don't know me,
I can get a bit crazy

I'm a sucker for really nice AMV. Honestly this this not the best I've ever seen.

I was looking for some Magic Kaito AMV for fun when I found this:


The song is an altered pitch from Miley Cyrus - I Can't Be Tamed. I never heard of the song before I saw this.

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Disclaimer: I do not own the video, the music, or the characters in it.

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Silver Airship

I want to see you once again.

#nowplaying supercell - Gin'iro Hikousen

          Recently, I've been talking to Amo-sama a lot. I don't really have a single word that could describe him but Amo-sama always say that he's heartless. I wonder what those usual shoujo manga character would do.. They'd definitely go all "Ah, no.. there must be a reason. I must save this lonely person" or something like that. Honestly, if that happened to me, I'll say "Back off. I'm not so pitiful that you need to save!"
Ok, yes. I have something against those girls. That's why I prefer characters like Haruhi (OHSHC) or Shizuku (TnK).

The odd part here though.. is that I'm jealous.

Desk makeover

I've been feeling down last sem, and got into a state where I don't even know how to cheer myself up.

So this sem, I'm doing a makeover on my desk.
  This way, I don't need to access the net just to see these bishounens that could cheer me up ^^

Lookie: behold!

Just finished decorating this an hour ago :D

So, what do you think? Hehe~ ok, I'm gonna go back to studyin :)

Later~

Tsubasa: The Last Time

This one mostly on Tokyo Revelation OVA.



I kinda feel this kind of emotion at the moment.
Haha
Excuse me for being pathetic.

Disclaimer: I do not own the video.

Source: YouTube 

Attachment

You know how I'm too deeply attached to stories I've read or watched? I especially love the kind of stories that resonates deep within. The kind that doesn't need overly handsome characters that would melt my heart to make me like 'em.

Most of the stories(novels) I've read have these sort of feeling. As for movies, nah, usually, the impression didn't last for even a day.
          I guess that's coz I choose my novel quite well^^, excuse me if I voluntarily praise myself. *laugh* . As for movies, the factors as to why I don't enjoy them much could be because:

1. I don't watch movies that much.
2. I usually don't care what movie was played.
3. Normally, I just watched what others wanted to watch.
4. They're just something for me to see, and forget the next day.
5. I'm just curious why everyone seem to like them.
6. The advertisement is a whole lot better than the real show.

So yeah, that concludes why movies doesn't leave a deep long lasting memory to me. Not all though. I still love all 3 of The Lord of The Rings movies.

          But anime and manga differs to me. I read/watched a variety of them ranging from different genres. Most anime I choose to watch were interesting and something I would say "great" after it ends. Funnily however, the ones I choose rarely leave me attached to it for months or years. The kind of anime that made a deep long lasting I-don't-know-how-to-explain feeling in me are usually the one recommended. By the most annoying, irritating and meddlesome of a sister. She's not really the first person to introduce the world of manga/anime to me but she's the one who made me realize the joy of watching 'em. Blergh, that sounds annoying.

          The recent anime that I watched that still lingers would be Seirei no Moribito (Guardian of the Sacred Spirit) and Kemono no Souja, Erin (Beastinarian Erin). Those were recommended by that certain annoying sister. The one from long ago would be Sailormoon(manga), though no one really recommend it to me, but it's thanks to Hime that I was able to read that. And there's Code Geass, recommended by Hime. Still love it so much that I rewatched it many many times . Not just love, it's that swirling feeling that always made me think. Or daydream. Haha. And there's a few more but I don't really want to mention all, right? It would take hours and hours or maybe days and weeks to list all of 'em down.

          So basically, why did I start talking about this? That would be due to Saiunkoku Monogatari. I first watched the anime when Animax was still a new channel on Astro. I think that was 6 years ago. At first, it was just a normal like. But then I found out it have a second season, and so I continued till the second season. I only remember bits of it at that time. But maybe 4 or 3 years ago, I rewatched it. DANG, my views completely changed! When I watched it as a kid, I probably don't understand it that much. Since then, I've been rewatching it every year. And since I borrowed the series from my aunt last year, I've been rewatching it every month!

           Siena said she lost interest in it because almost all the guys in the series fell for Shuurei. And I don't remember what else. Actually, I thought so at first too. But then, the first time I rewatched it was because I got that fan-girl disease for Seiran. Haha. The next time I watched it, I kinda' understood Ryuuki's point of view and since I changed my target to General Ran. But the next time I watched it, I kinda' empathize with more characters and find the series even more interesting, not to mention the pain Ryuuki felt seemed more and more real. That's why I couldn't stop. I've been rewatching the series countless of times and I still feel hopelessly dense about the characters. As for Ryuuki, the more I understand his character, the painful it gets. I wanted to sympathize with him but if I do so, won't it be an insult to his effort? This might sound crazy since it's just anime but I sincerely feel like that.

          Sometimes I wonder if I treat reality the way I treat those novels and anime. When I see people in pain, I would pray hard for them or support them from the background. It just didn't feel like me to meddle in their business. The worst is, if they are trying hard, I refuse to sympathize because I feel that it's an insult to their hard work. I wonder if my way of thinking is severely wrong. And if they're not, even when they've been given a push or more, then I wouldn't even care. In this life, you determine how you want to walk your path, right? So if these people are given encouragement, are helped in various ways and still doesn't change, or try their best to change, what other treatment should they receive?

          In the past, due to stupidity and such narrow views, I would sympathize with myself. But you know, sympathizing with yourself is the same as blaming others for your fate. Or blaming fate itself. However, in doing so, you're just being pathetic. I forgot from which anime I heard this, 

"If you hate your fate, change it!" 

Allah gave us trials so we could overcome them, right? I'm not going to say that I've overcome my hurdle in life. Heck, there's plenty I haven't. I don't even have the confidence to say that I won't give up. I might will.

          However, as long as I live, I want to fall back to my own effort, my own hard work. If I fail, that's because I didn't give much effort in it. If I succeed, then maybe my way of doing things was right all along. If the going gets tough, and I feel like giving up, I would remember Kyoko and want to try my best to simply knock down the wall obstucting my path instead of looking for another way out.

          I'm not sure if you understand me but I am thankful to Allah because my experience have made me someone who could empathize well. I have no room for sympathy and I might and have been told I'm cold and harsh for that. Sometimes those words are true, I won't deny it. I'm not such a soft, kind girl in the first place. The least I have is the pride that if I ever did or will help someone, it's not due to sympathy. They just deserve the help, that's all there is to it.

Ehehe, so that all for now. Thanks for reading.

p/s : I actually just wanted to talk

about Ryuuki but I wonder

how it got dragged on.

 Hehe.

Mawaru Penguindrum

It's review time^^

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Summary:


          The story revolves around the Takakura siblings; Kanba, Shouma, and Himari. At the start of the story, Kanba and Shouma received news that their sickly little sister had only a few months more to live. Thus, on the supposed day, they brought Himari to an aquarium. When exiting the aquarium, Shouma bought Himari a penguin-shaped hat. However, Himari was nowhere to be seen. That is, until they heard the crowd saying they saw a girl suddenly fainted somewhere outside. Taken to the hospital, Himari was confirmed dead.

          While the brothers were agonizing over fate, Himari's body turned alive due to some mysterious powers coming from the hat. The "hat" supposedly has extended Himari's life with certain condition to the brothers: Find the Penguindrum. With only a girl name; Ringo Oginome as their lead, the brothers started the search for Penguindrum in the game of transferring fate.


Thoughts

Hehe.. how was that? That the second time I did my own summary^^ Here are my thoughts on the story. BEWARE!! It contains SPOILERS~ Don't read it if you hate spoilers!!

          When the story started, it was fine.. and yeah, we all would be interested to know whether Himari would live and as to what the Penguindrum is.
But it gets a bit scary here:

           Ringo Oginome is a stalker, to which the Takakura brothers would soon found out. She's stalking a man named Keiju Tabuki; her late sister's boyfriend, coincidentally Shouma's teacher. And it seems that she followed every little detail written in her late sister, Momoka's diary. Due to parents trauma, Ringo thought it was her fate to be Momoka.
That seemed like some psychological problem, no? Yeah, we could say pity that girl, pity that girl. Haixx..
What shocked me was when Kanba kissed Himari while she was sleeping. WHAATTT??!!, I thought. That's like illegal!! or something. And I seriously thought that this story will develop into some kind of sister-complex kind of thing. Kinda' glad I didn't stick to that conclusion now..


           Well, then we'll found out that Momoka's diary IS the Penguindrum. So, the brothers frantically tried to get the diary. And then they found out that they're not the only one trying to get the diary. A girl name Masako Natsume will soon find every opportunity to disrupt Kanba's life. I thought, really thought she was one of Kanba's jealous or revengeful ex-girlfriend. But it turned out that she wasn't. Oh, and Ringo will be friends with Himari some time later after an incident with Tabuki's fiancee, Yuri Tokikago. Thus, she will also find out why the Takakura brothers are interested in Momoka's diary. A deal was then made. The brothers will help her get Tabuki and after her "Project-M" as written in the diary is completed, she'll hand the diary to them so that Himari would be saved.

          Since Kanba was working with some secret organization to earn Himari's medication bill, Shouma was dragged along with Ringo's plan. But Shouma's moral was against Ringo drastic action. Little by little, Ringo end up falling for Shouma. It was around that time she found out the Takakuras history. I must admit, their history aren't the worst. But due to their train of thoughts, it was probably the worst tragedy in the story. They thought that whatever that befall onto Himari was a punishment by fate. Momoka's death was due to the siblings parents crime. Shocked, Ringo consulted Tabuki. Tabuki on the other hand were informed of the case and together with Yuri, he secretly habour vengence. But later on, they made their peace.

          As the story progressed, Masako will aggressively try to get the Penguindrum for his younger brother, Maruo and win her elder brother, Kanba back to her. However, Kanba refused to return to the Natsume clan. Hehe, did I type to long? Now worries, by the way, I'm too lazy to give you all the suspense, so let me just say it clearly: Kanba was Kanba Natsume before he got adopted by the Takakura. That's the reason Masako was so angry. Maruo was dying yet Kanba was desperately trying to save a "stranger" life. And it seems that Masako held onto a promise Kanba made when they were children, that is, Kanba will protect them.

          Let's speed up,okay? On Himari side however,she found out that she was also an adopted child by the Takakura, choosen by Shouma.  Thus, not wanting anymore sacrifice, she readily accept her coming death. Around the time truth got to her, Shouma and Kanba had a terrible fight because Kanba was involved in the crime organization their parents were into. Kanba left the house. Shouma couldn't stand the guilt of his parents crime. He sent Himari to their uncle house. Himari, wanting to save Kanba, decided to go after him at the cost of her life.

          Manipulated by Sanetoshi Watase's ghost, Kanba burned the Penguindrum and followed the words of Sanetoshi to sacrifice the life of others. This kinda' despair me actually, because now they don't have a chance to save Himari. But then again, I never did expect Himari to live. After all, the dead should be dead, right? Well, this IS anime. And, it's fiction.

          So, while arguing with Shouma again, Ringo arrived. Sanetoshi laughed and claimed that he won against Momoka because they can't do anything without the Penguindrum. However, Ringo knew the "fated words" and thus use it to revive Himari. The Penguindrum is a fate-transfer book. So basically, Ringo's transferring her life to Himari. With that, her own life began to burn. But then, Shouma came and take over, claiming that everything started due to his parents crime, so he should be the one to atone for it. Kanba too, following the chain, disintegrates.

And with that, Maruo and Himari's life both extended. When Himari woke up later on, the pictures on the wall which was once Kanba, Shouma and Himari only had Himari in it.
     Yup, yup.. you're right. She had no recollection of having brothers at all. But then, she found that letter tucking out from her favourite bear.
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                                         V

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So that's it,.. pretty sad, eh?

Find One Piece in the NEW WORLD

Haha~ don't be fooled by the title^^ kikiki

Hehe~ Thanks^^
There's no summer here but well,... it's just the same anyway^^
So,...
I'll take on the advice^^

The Melancholy Of Haruhi Suzumiya: God Knows

This take me back to those times......

One Piece Opening 14 - Fight Together

by Namie Amuro

Ano Hana

Ano Hi Mita Hana no Namae o Bokutachi wa Mada Shiranai

*highly recommended

Plot

A group of six childhood friends drift apart after one of them, Meiko "Menma" Honma, dies in an accident. Ten years after the incident, the leader of the group, Jinta Yadomi, has withdrawn from society and lives as a recluse. One summer day, an older looking Menma appears before him and asks to have a wish granted. However, she does not remember what it is. 

source:  http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Ano_Hi_Mita_Hana_no_Namae_o_Bokutachi_wa_Mada_Shiranai

Click here to watch the story online.

I do not own the link.

My review

It's a wonderful story about friendship, in my opinion. How a person importance differ to each individual...

               For instance, when everyone decide to grant Menma's wishes, all 5 of them have different thoughts. Jinta never wanted to grant the wish because he didn't really want Menma to peacefully leave to heaven (according to the story). But he help and convince everyone because he love her and like seeing her smile. Anaru on the other hand wanted Menma to pass on because she wanted Menma to be out of Jinta's head so that Jinta would like her instead.Yukiatsu was irritated and frustrated because Jinta was the only one that could see Menma so he wanted Menma to quickly leave so that Jinta won't have that advantage anymore. Basically, he and Anaru was jealous. Because Yukiatsu and Anaru was in way had the same problem, they had an understanding. This causes Tsuruko to be jealous of Anaru. She wanted to help Menma so that Anaru would be together with Jinta, and thus creating chance between her and Yukiatsu. As for Poppo, he saw Menma died and the image won't leave his head. Especially since he watch her fell and drift without helping. So he thought that if Menma would be happy to leave for heaven, then he would be freed of the guilt (at least that's how I understand it).

               In the end they realize how selfish they had been the entire time.. and they reflect on it. And all this time, Menma only wishes for them to be happy, to be friends again. To be friends forever.

Either way, the ending was tear-jerking. I haven't felt that sad for any story for many years now...

     It felt good to cry.

One Piece Ramble

just trying out the new font I downloaded ^^ heh. heh.

ONe PIeCE

ADEFUWA KUROLI 
& 
PORTgAS D. ACE 

WILL GET MARRIED ON THOUSAND SUNNY 

IN THE MIDDLE OF GRAND LINE.. 

AND LIVE 

HAPPILY EVER AFTER.. huhu~ 
bwahaahahahaha

The Ramble on Luck, is it pressure... ?

Previously, I thought... "Gah! I'm lucky most of the times^^"
          But then most of the time, no,.. not most... It's just in me.. I don't believe in luck.

So I ponder about it : Why do the word "luck" comes out of my mouth so easily when I really don't believe in it. Coincidence too,.. not that I don't believe it but I believe that everything has it's reason so to call something coincidence is really unreasonable to me.

Yuuko from XXXHolic catch phrase which been quoted many times by her fans had it's truth..

Nothing in this world is a coincidence. Everything is Hitsuzen*.
(xxxHOLiC)

*Hitsuzen meaning inevitability, destiny, or fate, as being the driving force in the world

Since I believe in god,... or to be more precise, I'm a muslim and I believe in Allah, I know that everything in this world is fated. He planned it all. Of course, there are reasons for everything.

          Now I'm starting to crap and stray from what I originally want to say..

The thing is, it's bugging me a lot. The word "luck". This might be an unnecessary rambling but I just had to spit it out of my head once and for all.

By definition, LUCK means :

1.	events that are beyond control and seem subject to chance; fortune
2.	success or good fortune
3.	something considered to bring good luck

There are many thing in this world that could make me gone mad.. For instance, that simple word "luck". Haaaa~ I really don't know what am I to do with myself T^T.

          So, if luck means chance, then it's a good thing right? I'm not too sure~ we shouldn't really depend on chances alone afterall. The world is not too kind that they'll give out chances to everyone. What about the advice "take chances". Or the bad education of "take other people chance"?  Survival means taking chances. But what kind of chances do we take to remain a good person? Like I have that hope anymore... When it come to this, I wonder if taking other people chances is a bad thing.. It doesn't sound bad if you hear it in another point of view.

          For instance, someone who have the chance would be fortunate, right? In other words, lucky. And we call the person who didn't get it unfortunate or unlucky. But under some circumstances, the A person were not able to take up that chance at that moment so the B person took it. And the A side would say, B stole their chance. Well, then their unfortunate. But seldom people say that they're unlucky.Why? Maybe cause they got the chances in the first place. But B side would say that B is great at looking for chances. Would that be called fortunate? And can we substitute in the word and say "B, you're great at looking for luck!" It would sound odd indeed.

But then again, "chance" are not used in that way only. And giving situation, luck is not the right word probably.
If you're getting bored or complicated, or you think I'm crazy right now.. that that's fine. I already told that this is just one of the ramble that's been disturbing me so I need to spit it out. Who force you to read it in the first place? Haha

          How bout' the use of luck in cheer? Instead of saying "Good luck", shouldn't one say "Do your best! I'm rooting^^" or shorten it to just "Do your best", "Give all you got" and etc. That why I love the word "Ganbatte!!" Short, and simple.  It is a saying used to encourage people to try hard before a performance to say good luck.But then again, even that word had a little essence of luck. At least it literally means do your best, I guess~

Haa~ I wonder if I talk too much of nonsense....

I guess Ace's death really got into me T^T

Well, to those who actually read this until the very end, which I planned to be here.. Thanks a lot~ It would be better if you could help me by leaving some comments AND follow me^^

But then again, maybe you don't want to hear these rambling~ tee hee >,<

I'm gonnna study right now and pray for the best for mid-year!!!!! がんばりたい!!  がんばれます!! Luck is often not on my side.. not really.. I've been getting good fortune if it's not home related... so I'm not gonna depend on luck!! Everything is already fated but hardwork is not without results so I'll do my best and look forward to my result^^~

sources:

WIRED IN JAPAN: Do Your Best! Ganbatte! がんばって!

Dictionary : Luck

Earl and Fairy - Have You Ever

OMG, my love for this anime grew more and more each day~
Now I can't stand it anymore~~~
I wanna watch!!!!

Skip Beat! (スキップ・ビート! ) [PV] Prisoner

I love Shou ^^
Though it's unlikely, I wish Kyoko will end up with Shou~

Kyoko's hearth

This is the first AMV that i heard in Bulgarian~
It's very nice,.. hope I could understand it though

Good news, BAD news

           I'm really very annoyed and mad. My anger has reach its peak. Luckily for that baka Huninis, I hold it so that it won't go over the limit. I wish I could throw her in the ocean right now. If not, just set her to fire. God, why is she Uranna's wife anyway. I shall be patience and endured whatever that ***** did for Uranna's sake. I really want to kill her. No, that would be too much. I hate her enough to not care what she'll become~ I'm not gonna dirty my hands for her pathetic, of no importance life.

          Let's just talk on other things :
  Good news is, I'm going for Chess competition with Elle/Eli girl. Bad news is, though it's suppose to be a sure thing, but the Froggie-sensei just add another girl in. So now, we had to compete each other first before 2 people gets to go for the competition. Unlucky me, I'm not in the chess club, and had low chance of getting chosen. Grr, now I'm mad again.

          So, good news is that I manage to be busy in a good way. Bad news is, I'm getting envious of Elle/Eli girl 'cause she's new yet she's busier than I am. In a good way. And that's bad because I was part of the reason that she got all these chances yet now I'm jealous for actually giving her the chances. Why is all the good news only one sentence? Grr...

          Good news is, I'm getting diligent again and wants to do my homework and studies properly. And this happy news lift my spirit so much that I turn on the radio quite loud. Bad news is, because of that, that Huninis ***** cursed and accused me of twisted things! Ahh, forget it!!!!!

          Another good news is that plan of going to the Old Folks Home is progressing well, after the many push I did. Yet, bad news is, one of the teacher in charge is NOT doing her job, putting us on hold, and wanted unreasonable things that could hurt other when she want others not to hurt her student and self. And making me mad, and annoyed and kinda' lost my respect for her. Sorry for all teachers out there, but please understand, your students are human. They have feelings too. They have the amount of task they could handle too. And note this : I was told that we could actually sue the teachers and school if they give too many work until we're unable to play, laugh, and have enough sleep. Of course, I had no idea if that's true. I was told that it comes under child's right.

          Oh, and I failed my Physics exam. Luckily, I'm a good kid who finish her homework and did an excellent work on notes. Thus I got bonus marks and ended up not failing. But it's still a shame though.

There's so much I want to say but I better get back to my homework if not I'll get lazy again.

I'm listening to Yubiwa by Maaya Sakamoto

Kimi ni Todoke AMV - About you now (Miranda Cosgrove)

One of my favourite anime~
And this is a really good AMV by A-chan.