Catching the Worm

So I've been like on a roll with my new fanfic since these past months.

Updated story | Not a Girl, Not a Woman, Chapter 14: Early Bird Catches Worm: https://t.co/kFIorJNFWh #dcmk #fanfiction -Enjoy- （‐＾▽＾‐）

— ◎theSilentReader◎ (@aa_dono) January 6, 2016

It felt good to be able to write again.

When The World Expands

Have you ever felt like you're left behind by a great deal of things that matters?

          Here's a story about someone who worked so hard on something and now have to re-think her steps.

She's on the verge of success, what made her even think of pulling out?

Literary Line-up

Pre-Calculus and Introduction to Literature, that's what I've learnt after the 2nd week of this semester. For some reason, the other 2 classes will be delayed. And here I am, mourning for the upcoming race of replacement classes. (┳Д┳)

So anyway,
          Due to many factors I wish not to type out - basically because I'm least diligent this morning - I've gotten myself energy bars! And that was for breakfast!

Ok ok, I don't really have much to share this time.
  But I'm just so super excited to read these: (the line-up of this semester's read a.k.a literature) Ｏ(≧∇≦)Ｏ

Puteri Gunung Ledang Parody

Oh, did I ever tell?

I was part of the Drama & Theater co-curriculum group. Haha, desho? Don't laugh though.

Well anyway, here's the script that I wrote:
   do tell me if it's any good ^^

To read => Puteri Gunung Ledang Parody

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You know how I'm too deeply attached to stories I've read or watched? I especially love the kind of stories that resonates deep within. The kind that doesn't need overly handsome characters that would melt my heart to make me like 'em.

Most of the stories(novels) I've read have these sort of feeling. As for movies, nah, usually, the impression didn't last for even a day.
          I guess that's coz I choose my novel quite well^^, excuse me if I voluntarily praise myself. *laugh* . As for movies, the factors as to why I don't enjoy them much could be because:

1. I don't watch movies that much.
2. I usually don't care what movie was played.
3. Normally, I just watched what others wanted to watch.
4. They're just something for me to see, and forget the next day.
5. I'm just curious why everyone seem to like them.
6. The advertisement is a whole lot better than the real show.

So yeah, that concludes why movies doesn't leave a deep long lasting memory to me. Not all though. I still love all 3 of The Lord of The Rings movies.

          But anime and manga differs to me. I read/watched a variety of them ranging from different genres. Most anime I choose to watch were interesting and something I would say "great" after it ends. Funnily however, the ones I choose rarely leave me attached to it for months or years. The kind of anime that made a deep long lasting I-don't-know-how-to-explain feeling in me are usually the one recommended. By the most annoying, irritating and meddlesome of a sister. She's not really the first person to introduce the world of manga/anime to me but she's the one who made me realize the joy of watching 'em. Blergh, that sounds annoying.

          The recent anime that I watched that still lingers would be Seirei no Moribito (Guardian of the Sacred Spirit) and Kemono no Souja, Erin (Beastinarian Erin). Those were recommended by that certain annoying sister. The one from long ago would be Sailormoon(manga), though no one really recommend it to me, but it's thanks to Hime that I was able to read that. And there's Code Geass, recommended by Hime. Still love it so much that I rewatched it many many times . Not just love, it's that swirling feeling that always made me think. Or daydream. Haha. And there's a few more but I don't really want to mention all, right? It would take hours and hours or maybe days and weeks to list all of 'em down.

          So basically, why did I start talking about this? That would be due to Saiunkoku Monogatari. I first watched the anime when Animax was still a new channel on Astro. I think that was 6 years ago. At first, it was just a normal like. But then I found out it have a second season, and so I continued till the second season. I only remember bits of it at that time. But maybe 4 or 3 years ago, I rewatched it. DANG, my views completely changed! When I watched it as a kid, I probably don't understand it that much. Since then, I've been rewatching it every year. And since I borrowed the series from my aunt last year, I've been rewatching it every month!

           Siena said she lost interest in it because almost all the guys in the series fell for Shuurei. And I don't remember what else. Actually, I thought so at first too. But then, the first time I rewatched it was because I got that fan-girl disease for Seiran. Haha. The next time I watched it, I kinda' understood Ryuuki's point of view and since I changed my target to General Ran. But the next time I watched it, I kinda' empathize with more characters and find the series even more interesting, not to mention the pain Ryuuki felt seemed more and more real. That's why I couldn't stop. I've been rewatching the series countless of times and I still feel hopelessly dense about the characters. As for Ryuuki, the more I understand his character, the painful it gets. I wanted to sympathize with him but if I do so, won't it be an insult to his effort? This might sound crazy since it's just anime but I sincerely feel like that.

          Sometimes I wonder if I treat reality the way I treat those novels and anime. When I see people in pain, I would pray hard for them or support them from the background. It just didn't feel like me to meddle in their business. The worst is, if they are trying hard, I refuse to sympathize because I feel that it's an insult to their hard work. I wonder if my way of thinking is severely wrong. And if they're not, even when they've been given a push or more, then I wouldn't even care. In this life, you determine how you want to walk your path, right? So if these people are given encouragement, are helped in various ways and still doesn't change, or try their best to change, what other treatment should they receive?

          In the past, due to stupidity and such narrow views, I would sympathize with myself. But you know, sympathizing with yourself is the same as blaming others for your fate. Or blaming fate itself. However, in doing so, you're just being pathetic. I forgot from which anime I heard this, 

"If you hate your fate, change it!" 

Allah gave us trials so we could overcome them, right? I'm not going to say that I've overcome my hurdle in life. Heck, there's plenty I haven't. I don't even have the confidence to say that I won't give up. I might will.

          However, as long as I live, I want to fall back to my own effort, my own hard work. If I fail, that's because I didn't give much effort in it. If I succeed, then maybe my way of doing things was right all along. If the going gets tough, and I feel like giving up, I would remember Kyoko and want to try my best to simply knock down the wall obstucting my path instead of looking for another way out.

          I'm not sure if you understand me but I am thankful to Allah because my experience have made me someone who could empathize well. I have no room for sympathy and I might and have been told I'm cold and harsh for that. Sometimes those words are true, I won't deny it. I'm not such a soft, kind girl in the first place. The least I have is the pride that if I ever did or will help someone, it's not due to sympathy. They just deserve the help, that's all there is to it.

Ehehe, so that all for now. Thanks for reading.

p/s : I actually just wanted to talk

about Ryuuki but I wonder

how it got dragged on.

 Hehe.

【Nico Nico Chorus】 Servant of Evil 【Classical Chorus Version】【8 People'...

One Piece Opening 14 - Fight Together

by Namie Amuro

House of Many Ways by Diana Wynne Jones

Summary

Charmain Baker has led a respectable, sheltered life. She has spent her days with her nose in a book, never learning how to do even the smallest household chores. When she suddenly ends up looking after the tiny cottage of her ill Great Uncle William she seems happy for the adventure, but the easy task of house-sitting is complicated by the fact that Great-Uncle William is also the Royal Wizard Norland and his magical house bends space and time.

Though she is supposed to clean up the mess Great-Uncle William has left the house in, Charmain knows next to nothing about magic, and yet she seems to work it in the most unexpected way. The house's single door can lead to almost any place - from other rooms like the kitchen, to faraway places, and even other time periods. In her first days in the magical house, she ends up looking after a magical stray dog named Waif, had an encounter with a horrible lubbock, a confused young apprentice wizard named Peter shows up, a box of the King's most treasured documents, and a clan of small blue creatures called Kobolds.

When Charmain is caught up in an intense royal search to remedy the kingdom's troubles, she encounters Sophie Pendragon, her son Morgan, a beautiful child named Twinkle (who is really Howlin disguise), and their fire demon Calcifer.

She is soon involved in curing the kingdom of its ills and restoring the long-lost Elfgift.

My Review:

          I was interested with the book beacause of Wizard Howl, predictably. When I first found out that the main character is another girl, I was disappointed. That shows just how silly I am.

In the midst of my head-aching studying, I thought I needed some light reading, so I choosed this book. I didn't thought it would be great!

          Charmain remind me of myself, well, just the lazy portion, a bit, and the fact that we both turn to books when anything happens. I wasn't 'respectable' enough to not know how to clean, wash and cook though.

Charmain character is well potrayed, in my opinion.

     I wanted to praise her more, but my mind is on Howl so let's just skip to that and you could go and read the story yourself to know more about this Charmain dear humorous and adventurous tale.

          I love how Howl disguise as Twinkle. It's just so funny^^. And Calcifer is such a dear. I wish I could say more about Sophie but I didn't read the first book. And it seems that the anime by Ghibli Studio is quite different from the novel. Whatever the case, I love the book-version of Sophie. She's fierce and sweet.

Oh, and I love this part:

"...And Wizard Howl at last handed Waif back to Charmain. He did it with such a dazzlingly apologetic smile that Charmain felt quite flustered.

             I like him better as a grown-up man, she thought. No wonder Sophie was so annoyed with Twinkle!..."

I wish Charmain know how my heart goes pitter patter all over Howl. Hoho. But either way, all of us Howl-fangirls lost to Sophie anyway... T^T so better go back to studying chemistry....

Ja!

Ano Hana

Ano Hi Mita Hana no Namae o Bokutachi wa Mada Shiranai

*highly recommended

Plot

A group of six childhood friends drift apart after one of them, Meiko "Menma" Honma, dies in an accident. Ten years after the incident, the leader of the group, Jinta Yadomi, has withdrawn from society and lives as a recluse. One summer day, an older looking Menma appears before him and asks to have a wish granted. However, she does not remember what it is. 

source:  http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Ano_Hi_Mita_Hana_no_Namae_o_Bokutachi_wa_Mada_Shiranai

Click here to watch the story online.

I do not own the link.

My review

It's a wonderful story about friendship, in my opinion. How a person importance differ to each individual...

               For instance, when everyone decide to grant Menma's wishes, all 5 of them have different thoughts. Jinta never wanted to grant the wish because he didn't really want Menma to peacefully leave to heaven (according to the story). But he help and convince everyone because he love her and like seeing her smile. Anaru on the other hand wanted Menma to pass on because she wanted Menma to be out of Jinta's head so that Jinta would like her instead.Yukiatsu was irritated and frustrated because Jinta was the only one that could see Menma so he wanted Menma to quickly leave so that Jinta won't have that advantage anymore. Basically, he and Anaru was jealous. Because Yukiatsu and Anaru was in way had the same problem, they had an understanding. This causes Tsuruko to be jealous of Anaru. She wanted to help Menma so that Anaru would be together with Jinta, and thus creating chance between her and Yukiatsu. As for Poppo, he saw Menma died and the image won't leave his head. Especially since he watch her fell and drift without helping. So he thought that if Menma would be happy to leave for heaven, then he would be freed of the guilt (at least that's how I understand it).

               In the end they realize how selfish they had been the entire time.. and they reflect on it. And all this time, Menma only wishes for them to be happy, to be friends again. To be friends forever.

Either way, the ending was tear-jerking. I haven't felt that sad for any story for many years now...

     It felt good to cry.

Little Women by Louisa May Alcott

Little Women by Louisa May Alcott

Dearling Miuhaya XD

           I've been waiting for Kimi ni Todoke Live Action for soooooo long.... And now it's finally out!!!!!!! the DVD was out on 11th of March and now it's out online.... ^^ But raw though~ Don't really have anything about it... I can't understand the story well... But I wanna watch Hiruma Miura so I just have to watch it even if it's without subtitle...

          I wish the Subtitled DVD is also in sale~ I wanna buy my darling Miura~
I wanna watch my dear Kazehaya....

Darling Miura + Dear Kazehaya = Dearling Miuhaya 

XXXD

Just kidding~ I still would prefer Miura Haruma as he is AND Kazehaya Shouta as he is.

Love the fact that Miura will be Kazehaya-kun ^^

I guess this pounding feeling is LOVE ??

huhu

Adefuwa Kuroli ; The First Phase : Chapter 4

UPDATES!!!!!!!!!! I've just finished the script for school so I continued the story~ ah,,.. now there's still more to be done so chou~ adiue~

My Ideal Home

Try it out~

It's an essay I wrote for exam.
Well, the one I typed here were the original. I left the mistakes, the grammar error and etc there. It already marked but I wanted to leave it that way.

Another composition

 I wrote a short story of a modernize Alice. It was somewhat weird, Sasha told me. My Elle/Eli friend told me that it was a good, twisted and interesting version. I was planning on putting them on the school magazine and they told me that I should.

          But somehow, I fell that I shouldn't. The look they gave me were like : It's interesting, but we're not sure if it's appropriate for the magazine, Not sure if the school would understand such different views, and etc.

          I was really looking forward to it, you know? But I'm not too sure now. However, there's a thing called trying, right? Once I asked Elle about it, but it seems that these days he's been giving me silent treatment. He look at me as if saying, "If you think you want to do it, then do it. If not, then don't". Sure, that helps. Thanks a lot Elle. I wanted to ask Fritz but I'm too embarrassed to even let him read it. Well, to sum it all, only 4 human beings have read my story, not including Elle but my other unmentioned classmate and Ien.

         I also tried to write a Haiku. But until now, I haven't get the comment from 'the expert' which is Sasha's dad. I wonder if it's too boring or bad that Sasha didn't want to tell me of it. Maybe she said she forgot to ask because it was sooo bad and she didn't want to break my heart for telling me so. Oh my fragile, fragile heart, if it was brittle, I'll be gone long long ago. Sasha should have just told me the truth, I would be sad for a while. But it'll only take a while anyway,... as if I'll let it drag on to me forever. She should know that much by now. But I don't blame her. Elle and Fritz told me that I've been keeping a lot of secrets and never tell anyone the whole truth. No lies, but not the truth either.

          School had kept me busy these few weeks. I'm going to try out for Badminton, since I've missed softball. Of course, I would prefer essay competition or chess but I'm not sure if there's any competition for that this year. The government had reduced the amount of money to be supplied for education so since last year, no competition was held. It saddens me but there's nothing much I can do since letters and complaint aren't being heard. I'm still hoping for chess competition though. I want to play Elle/Eli girl ever since I heard she was good in it last month. But we never had the chance. I want to see who's better. It's personal really. I'm not in the chess club so off the record, I'm the best in the school right now ^^~. That's not really bragging, I'm only telling. Grr, I wish LaRich and Dev could stop chuckling right now. Fritz is giving me this big smile as if I'm lying. Ah, and yet again, Elle is keeping quiet. What's bothering him, I wonder.

          I guess I should try and find out someday of Elle's unusual behaviour. It's really too odd but I can't really ask anyone since Fritz hates Elle and wouldn't care while LaRich and Dev would never dare to tell. The human beings wouldn't be able to know, of course since they don't even know that he existed. Thus, the only way is to confront him myself.

Once I'm free from the loads of work.
I even have to study for exam next week. Elle, faster come to your senses! WHo would help me study if you keep on doing this?

Secret Garden

          I'm into this drama lately. It was recommended by may new friend whose name resembles Elle and Eli. It's a funny, romantic, yet tense (not quite sure if this is right) drama. But I'm in love wit it from the first chapter itself. The storyline is interesting.

Synopsis

The drama tells the story of Kim Joo Won (Hyun Bin), an arrogant and eccentric CEO who maintains the image of seeming perfection, and Gil Ra Im (Ha Ji Won), a poor and humble stuntwoman whose beauty and body are the object of envy amongst top actresses. Their accidental meeting, when Joo Won mistakes Ra Im for actress Park Chae Rin, marks the beginning of a tense, bickering relationship, through which Joo Won tries to hide a growing attraction to Ra Im that both confuses and disturbs him. To complicate matters further, a strange sequence of events results in them swapping bodies.


source: http://wiki.d-addicts.com/Secret_Garden


          I love the guy, Kim Joo Won character the most. Hyun Bin is very very very good acting that character. How do I put it? Joo Won is the meanest man yet aggressive and romantic. I don't mean aggressive in a way that he'll kick punch etc, but his persistence pestering and constant flirting with the girl. But though all his action are very very very heart throbbing a.k.a romantic, he's words are like knife stabbing you and worse, hold your tongue. There's nothing we can argue about it, 'cause he's right. But the fact that he is, is what makes him so mean. Yet, while hating him to, I can't seem to avert my eyes, we just can't push him away. Although painful, we would want him to still be there, even if he probably don't love us, and don't care a thing about how we feel, or worse, just toying with our feelings.

I guess I love that character the most. The girl was good too. But maybe as another girl, I can't bring myself to compliment her since I've used up my emotion for the guy. Huhu~ Does that make sense?

I also love the other character in the drama. Well, not Joo Won's mother, yet. I'm at the 18th episode and I still don't find anything to like about his mother. But tthe story in some part, like when they went to Jeju Island is creepy. I mean, it felt so... (sorry, my vocab not that good so I could only use this word) creepy when they enter the forest(the shop-old lady-flower wine-chickens). It gives me goosebumps.

Well, in other words, I truly recommend this story to be a must watch!

Twilight Fanfiction

Valentines Day

by lalliette

Valentines Day

Tears filled her eyes as she saw the truth. His eyes were cold and black. He turned his back on her. He took no last glance. She stood all alone in the forest.

My inside all turn to ash so slow

And blew away as I collapsed so cold

A black wind took them away from sight

And held the darkness over day that night

He moved through the trees to fast for her weak eyes to steal a final glance. She turned in circles calling his name over and over. “Edward, Edward” she cried.

And clouds above move closer

Looking so dissatisfied

But the heartless wind kept blowing, blowing

He heard her cries but didn’t turn around. She stumbled after him. Her hands reached out to the empty air where he once stood.

I used to be my own protection but not now

’Cause my path has lost direction somehow

A black wind took you away from sight

And held darkness over day that night

She tripped and fell. She called his name over and over. The wind blew her hair and he could still smell her sweet scent.

And the clouds about move closer

Looking so dissatisfied

And the ground below grew colder

As they put you down inside

But the heartless wind kept blowing, blowing

She fell her final fall. She wrapped her arms around her legs. The rain washed her tear stained face. Her eyes closed and her mouth whispered his name over and over. “Edward, Edward”.

So now you’re gone

And I was wrong

I never knew what it was like

To be alone

The rains drown her sobs. She would never see him again. His heart was not hers anymore. She called his name again and again. He was gone.

On a valentines day

On a valentines day

On a valentines day

On a valentines day

On a valentines day

It became dark. Charlie would worry about her, but she didn’t want to see him. She called for Edward over again; she wanted to see him, to feel him. But he didn’t hear her. He was not there anymore.

I used to be my own protection

On a valentines day

On a valentines day

But not now

On a valentines day

’Cause my mind has lost direction

On a valentines day

Somehow

On a valentines day

She repeated his words again and again, “I don’t love you, Bella. I don’t love you, Bella.” She lay there hoping that he would return. She closed her eyes hoping the pain would leave. She knew that her life was over.

I used to be my own protection

On a valentines day

On a valentines day

But not now

On a valentines day

’Cause my mind has lost direction

On a valentines day

Somehow

On a valentines day

“Bella, Bella.” She heard someone call her. She didn’t respond because it wasn’t him. “Bella, Bella.” They were far away. Everything was far away.

On a valentines day

“Edward, Edward.” she whispered knowing he was gone. Someone was next to her, picking her up. She knew it but she couldn’t feel it. She was numb. Only her lips moved repeating his name over and over. “Edward, Edward.”
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i read this at fanfiction.net and i seriously love it ^^