Sell-a-fish

I've been thinking a lot about relationship today. Romantic relationship.

I think so far, in my own relationship, Lemon and I have been having a pretty good relationship. Maybe it was thanks to Lemon, since we have discussed a bunch about how to manage a healthy relationship and how to this and that.

He wanted this relationship to last for a long time, thinking about the future and stuff, to which I agree, that I do want that too. After all, sometimes, the thought about our future together kept me going. At least, it forced me into a positivity and assertiveness in life so that I don't stay down.

All I Have

 Hey again those who still reads,

So it's no secret that I have some kind of mental health disorder. I can't recall if I wrote about it before. I have mentioned Elle a few too many times, so I think you can guess what the diagnosis was.

Anyway, I have been having a blast these past few weeks. I met up with friends, I started taking good care of my skin and hair, and generally having some kind of positivity in life.

I feel very, very blessed to have good people around me. 💗

I wish this post was about the positive energy that I've been feeling.

The Invisible Disappointment

 It was a strange dream. I don't remember how it started, but I know how it ended.

A low voice, a phone call, it distraught me so much that for some reason I knew where he lives. So I ran there with all I could, out of breath.

Then I reached his place. I know of his silver hair, I know his silhouette, but I don't know him, I can picture his head down, looking down at me from the other side of the door.

I banged the door, but he refused to open.

Hollow

I fell back into the loop. The vacuum abys that I wasn't supposed to submit to. I guess I don't write when I'm happy. Happy would be a stretch, I don't write when I am busy. And busy is good. It keeps me occupied, it keeps me going. From one thing on to the next. Having plans and daily routine makes my life much more balanced and breathable.

But that's not the case anymore.