Rain

Today, after the fact that I didn't sleep at all yesterday, I decided to be positive and try not to sleep in class.

         Surprisingly, it worked! I didn't sleep at all in class, and didn't even feel sleepy..

Now, what's to tell about that?
I'm the kind that would say, "Ahh~ it's raining... The great weather to sleep in"
So here's the thing, it was raining today. It wasn't heavy. Only drizzling. But it was a nice day to sleep, I'm pretty sure.

          But I was determine not to sleep and to be positive, so I did.
And while Sasha complaint, "God, we're having physics! Physics! Why did it have to rain??" , I thought, I didn't feel sleepy, thank you Allah^^..

          It was a nice breeze... Since my desk is right next to the door, some of the raindrops were melting in my papers. Not that I care much of it. It's JUST a few drops anyway. Instead, I was so happy to be happy on this rainy day^^.
But then, that feeling dwelled.
     I was so happy and it came.
          But I don't know how to describe that feeling I have as I watched the rain. It was a beautiful day although it wasn't sunny. Yet...

          So I turn around and asked Sasha,"What are you feeling right now.. I mean the rain and such??" Obviously, she stared curiously. But Sasha was used to me asking question out of the blue so she simply replied,"Sleepy, most people would feel gloomy.. There's no shine from the sun after all".
Hmmm, not quite what I'm feeling.

So later when recess came, I went to Hime, Chi and NaO and asked the same thing.
    "Happy!!,"said NaO,"I love rain!!"
Oh, ok... Not that I hate rain, but I wasn't happy precisely because of the rain, I was relieved and content that I felt happy because I wasn't sleepy due to the rain.
    "I want to sleep?" came Hime's reply.
Usually I do, but not today...
    "Sad, maybe....." said Chi. [At least, that's what I thought she said]
Sad..... not quite right either. But it caught me...

Sad,... sad... sad...
     What was there to be sad about?

So I kept thinking about this [except when my mind were so happy to be focused back on learning],
  and later that afternoon, a word struck me.

MELANCHOLY

deep and long lasting sadness / sad and depressed

It's stil sad though, for me to realize that I was actually feeling like that..

I wonder if I was actually feeling something else.

But it wasn't awe for the rain, sleepy because of the rain, or happy because of the rain..

     And it was definitely not just "sad"

Maybe it was that. But I wonder...

Is there any other emotion rain can trigger??

Find One Piece in the NEW WORLD

Haha~ don't be fooled by the title^^ kikiki

Hehe~ Thanks^^
There's no summer here but well,... it's just the same anyway^^
So,...
I'll take on the advice^^

BRIGHT - 1年2ヶ月20日 [1 year 2 months and 20 days]

[25.11.2015]
Wow it took me so long. Thanks Scary01 for pointing out my mistake.

[18.09.2013]

Updated translation. I did what I could. I'm still gonna continue trying to check if there's anything left to be fix.

But at least it's decent now :)

Lyrics: Yuuki Odagiri

Composer: Yuuki Odagiri

Lyrics & Translation:

BRIGHT

enjoying all of BRIGHT songs at the moment

BRIGHT - Sorairo

BRIGHT - One Summer Time

BRIGHT - Shining Butterfly [live]

BRIGHT - Feelin' You

Well, I've known this song since long ago.. and I FINALLY found the subs^^

New Clothes

Now that I think about it,...
my birthday presents consists of clothing~ haha, that's the first^^

This one is from Sienna^^ :]

I just realize that my editing sucks... oh well~

Tazia and Firann gave me something too but I'm too lazy to take a photo of it.. maybe when I'm not too lazy,.. I'll put it up~ huhu

Sunny Hill - Pray MV

I was scared at first until I actually understood...
This song is sad............

SPM Trial Timetable

.... for my state, at least..
here goes:

*the blacken space means I'm NOT taking the subjects....
*the peach coloured space are THE IMPORTANT subject I'm taking...

T^T I hope I'm ready......

"tee hee" = Sense of Urgency

Hmm... where do I start?

          Well, since exam is so too near, well, [2 weeks is pretty near....] our school decided to create a program where all the final year student grind their mind to think of only how to answer the exam papers.. It's already the second week since this so called Sense of Urgency program started.

Today was dedicated to Chemistry and Additional Mathematics...
          My weakest subject: Chemistry
          My favourite subject: Additional Mathematics (not that I'm that good at it)

          Anyway,  I just realized that Chemistry wasn't that hard... although realizing that doesn't make it easy. AND Add Math wasn't that super fun.. It still is fun, it's just NOT SUPER fun... and it's quite hard... and I though anything with numbers are super easy.
I guess I shouldn't underestimate the power of numbers that had been making many people gone mad regardless genius or not.

This rambling must have made you bored..... well it bore me too,... but somehow, I'm having fun studying~ I've known of its fun since long ago but haven't felt it for sooo many years.
Well, I'm glad I do have fun now. At least it's [hopefully] not too late.

          I have had the weirdest dream in this past few days. It was queer... not that I haven't had anything like it before... it's just that it's been coming back MORE frequently than ever.....
Is this some sort of sign?

I have been getting peaceful sleep nowadays~ I guess ignoring everything around you ease up a bit of your tension. Attention: this is NOT a good way to overcome your problem, so don't follow my lead! Though it's not the very best way to handle things, I'm not the very best human too. So let me do it my pace, ok?

          HOWEVER, despite my oh-so-fantasy about having the most peaceful night ever, one cannot deny that I DO occasionally still have sleepless night... I worry a lot about it at first.
That is until...
      Yesterday(?).. some anonymous girl (sorry girl, I really don't know you) stood in front at the assembly in school and gave out and article about "sleep". I don't really remember all of it since my head were focused on "I don't wanna stand here"... But along her lines, I remembered my sleeping problems and thought... It's nothing much~ afterall, occasional sleep problem occurs to everyone~

So practically, I 'm feeling pretty good^^ if you minus all the stack of things I ignored~ huhu....

Like I said, don't judge me just coz I don't handle things well..

Sorry, that wasn't phrase well,...

Judge me if you wish,

Scold me if you must,

Like me if do not hate, 

and

Accompany me along the way, 

because it's neccessary.

That's a pretty ugly rhyme..

and it didn't feel quite right too...

whatever~

I've looked through some universities I thought of going but... hmm....

Oh, and by the way~ Sienna gave Ien and myself new clothes^^ and shoes~ pretty cool right? It's for our birthday... hehe
Arigatou^^

Well then, goodnight~ It's pretty late here~

Supercell - Watashi He

supercell [`11 Today Is A Beautiful Day] 13 私へ

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------O.O------

HARO- konnichiha hisashiburi
watashi ha ima nani wo shiteimasuka
genki nara ii kedo
tokoro de ano toki no kimochi ha
wasureru koto ga dekita deshou ka
ima ha mada muri desu

Hello, good day, it’s been a while.
What am I doing right now?
It’ll be great if I’m fine.
By the way, those feelings from back then…
was I able to forget about them?
Right now, it’s impossible…

itsu no hi ka motto toshi wo tottara
wakaru hi ga kuru no deshou ka

One day, if the years go by,
will I be able to understand?

hontou ni kore de yokatta no kana
tama ni omou koto ga aru kedo
sonna koto ha iwanai de okou
datte watashi ha shitteru kara
jibun no monogatari wo

Was this really for the best?
I sometimes think about that,
but I’m better off not voicing it…
that’s because I know
my own story.

------O.O------ 

credits to : Deciphered Melody

Miwa - Change

Halo Patissier-kun^^

I have a dream....

          The faces are all very vague though... well, it's pretty embarrassing~ hehe.. I kinda have a "dreamy hallucination" of my future self..

          I don't know why, but in my dream,.. I'm married to a patissier. Well, I did tell my friends some time ago that I wish my husband would be a cook who own his own restaurant, if possible. But those are just hopes and rambles... Partly, it's because I don't fancy cooking so much... but I DO KNOW HOW TO COOK!!! and I'm pretty good at it. I don't mean to brag though~ *//*

          Well anyway, it seems like I was quite happy in that dream *//*... And I actually took part in house chores too... without anyone forcing me to clean up~
Well there's a lot more in that dream but it's too embarrassing to tell. heh.heh...

But still, I never thought I would hallucinate marrying a patissier~ coz well,... I'm not sooooo into pastries except cookies, you see? I don't even like sweet stuff that much..
          But it was a happy dream anyway... so I don't hate it^^

Well, I hope it WAS a dream. If it's a dream (one where I'm sleeping in reality), then it might be - at least I could believe it to be - a vision of the future or at least hope that it'll come true~ That kind of happy family....

But it wasn't a dream.. It's just me.. hallucinating too much since I had such a high fever on that day... I couldn't sleep but I had to lie in bed the whole day so I started to hallucinate..... I guess desire is a scary thing..

But I wonder if any patissier out there wouldn't mind liking a girl who doesn't like to eat so much of sweet stuff.. I really prefer bitter things..
     Or maybe, in the future, I might change?? Heh. heh. I'm getting all embarrassed just typing this *//*

The Melancholy Of Haruhi Suzumiya: God Knows

This take me back to those times......

One Piece Opening 14 - Fight Together

by Namie Amuro

Not Very Normal

Today, the day resume like it normally is.
     Except the fact that it's the month of Ramadan, so the other Muslim students and I are fasting.

          Well, I thought nothing could go wrong.. (as long as I'm at school, that is) You see, I'm starting to pick up most things that I've missed. And my pace and slowly catching up with everyone else.
Nothing did go wrong,... at least~ not academically...
   Nothing about the school, the studies, NOTHING of sort did go wrong~
I had a bit of a headache, but it was slight and bearable, so that does not consider as a problem.

However, the usual Tata, which I've never mention before....
      Tata is my classmate, annoying, fun, but annoying, and still fun, and her hobby is to make everyone annoyed when she's bored. Well, why she's considered fun? She disturbed everyone when they're too tensed and when thing are boring and duh duh! That's why though she's annoying, she's still fun~ no one hates her or something.. Maybe.. Well, Sasha do.. because of something in the past, I guess~ Grudge don't go away easily, you know?

         So, this Tata, her favourite ways of disturbing me is including pushing me to the wall, and "try to mess" with my scarf. There's one time she was successful so I've become extra cautious around her for that.. Stupid Tata~
          Back to the topic... Tata tried again today. Normally, I would have successfully push her away. I mean it, EASILY, I would have pushed her away.... But that's the problem. The-seem-to-be normal day did not go very normal today.
When she came near, I instinctively put up my defense. But DOOONNN!!! The minute my senses detect her hands, my strength was drained away.

          Here's the difficult part: My guard was still up, so why did my strength pull away? She did not mess with my scarf though. I don't know if it was either she realize how shock I was at the situation or whether she herself is shocked because I couldn't push her back.

Because after sometime, she exclaim,"Hey!! When did you get so weak??!!"

And buuuzzzzzzzzzz~ the bell chime in my head. My strength is failing me? What happen??
          Tata just left and said, "Sorry, maybe it's because you're fasting~"
And my thought scream, WE played and fought like this every single week and duh! That includes last year Ramadan month too!!!! It's not the fasting~ I'm not the kind gets weak over half a day of no-food. And besides, I already have my "sahur" (something like breakfast but it must be before Subuh prayer)..

I don't know what's happening~
          It's not the first time, now that I reflect on it,.. there are many times when my hand let go of my own book because it suddenly don't have the strength to carry it. And I'm not talking about a pile of books. I'm talking about a single light book.

But either way,.. that is that~
I don't want to worry too much on it... T____T