"Solemn"

          Am I serious? I meant as a person. I don't think I am. I might not have been too cheerful lately, that I know.

But that Elle-like girl... [it's about time I give her a name = Emmie; let's just go with that]

     On the second day of my trial exam... (I think it was on the second) she passed by my table and saw my ID. And she was so excited at first, thinking about a comment she ought to give. But then her expression gradually dropped. She stared at my picture and said,... "Hey Adefuwa, you look solemn".
I just smiled at that moment since I don't quite know the meaning of "solemn" but I guess she picked up expression pretty fast.

  So Emmie asked me, "You do know what that means right?"
Now here's one kind of annoying question people tend to ask, that is, including me. That kind of question implies that you realize that someone doesn't know and yet you still have to ask.
It might not be at all annoying if I hadn't guessed that "solemn" probably doesn't have a very good meaning.
 
        So, [dejectedly] I replied a "no". She became a bit nervous but "get on with it!" was the only thing I thought of. So she told me that it means serious, but sad. Or something like that.

Would you like it if someone told you that? No, I wouldn't. But she was just being honest and it's not like she mean any harm. I know she didn't, at the very least. So I simply said, "Oh, I never knew~" and shrugged the whole thing off.

          Now, I know Emmie's a smart girl. Heck, she is! A lot! [I'm pretty much jealous too]. But I can't possibly accept that sort of comment, I thought. But the truth is, I have accepted that. When she said I looked solemn, I thought of how that word sounds so right (part of the reason why I smiled). However, I don't like to think I'm like that the very least~ haha.

The most funny part is (at least to me it is)... although I said I don't like it, what bothers me isn't the fact that she said I looked solemn. It's the meaning of that word. It's like I couldn't believe what she said was the real meaning of that word.
So with this dilemma, I went and search for the meaning in Oxford Dictionary..
And here's what I got:

1. formal and dignified
2. not cheerful; serious
3. deeply sincere

I was hoping she was wrong.
Maybe that's the real dilemma.
After all, it's not like Emmie and I are close enough that she actually thought of that. And even if I am like that now, I can't believe that I was like that 5 years ago. (That picture was from five years ago)....

"Things" started happening to me after that picture is taken. I remember the dates well. So I can't be like how she described me, right?
I think I was pretty cheerful back in those years^^ Very, except when Sasuke and Naruto was fighting when Sasuke left the village.... haha^^ (Those are really precious memories)

But someone ask me before (though not directly) , "So are you a serious person?"
            Blergh, what's that supposed to mean? I said I don't know. Haha~ I just didn't feel like answering him at that time.
And many times too,.. I've heard some people talking and they describe me as someone serious. I doubt I am.

Define serious for me then! I checked on the word and I still doubt I am. It didn't really bugged me though. I just want to know which part of me is viewed as serious. Could it be that I don't joke? Hmm... that too isn't very true~

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For now, I'm content and happy because tomorrow I don't have class^^ But I still need to study for Account exam on Thursday~

YOSH!!!!!