I used to really like Truth or Dare. I still do, but I realize I'm not one keen for dares. I like truth questions, though. There are a lot of deeply personal things I could ask to friends when I play this. I mean not private sensual things, but deep dark secret that we take turns asking. In that way, we'd get to know each other better and will come closer to each other.
However, I have never been one to disclose my deepest, darkest secret. I found them embarrassing, and also revealing them would make me vulnerable. Still, truth questions were fun because no one knows the right way of asking me to reveal what I prefer not to.
In hindsight, maybe they have been nice to me by not asking things that I might not want to share.
Lately though, I find myself scared of the game. There are so many simple things that if I were to answer truthfully, I would be in trouble with my supposed principles.
I feel even more embarrassed to admit to people what my thought are towards certain things.
I guess in a way, I cared what people think of me. I thought I, who was the cool-no-fuss girl in the past would grow to be a cooler adult. In the end, I became like everyone else - or at least the kind of girl I hate to be: lame.
Truth questions became harder to bear, as I have more things to hide.
I'm glad I have Lemon though. I can be myself when I am with him. I am ashamed that he saw me having a mask on with others, and sometimes I wish those masks are still on when he look at me.
It's probably for the best that he likes me unmasked. I think.
That's a relief on being truthful.
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