To move forward in this cycle of life. See the tiny details in life. Mourn. Groan. Giggle. Laugh. Smile. Strive!
A low voice, a phone call, it distraught me so much that for some reason I knew where he lives. So I ran there with all I could, out of breath.
Then I reached his place. I know of his silver hair, I know his silhouette, but I don't know him, I can picture his head down, looking down at me from the other side of the door.
I banged the door, but he refused to open.
I fell back into the loop. The vacuum abys that I wasn't supposed to submit to. I guess I don't write when I'm happy. Happy would be a stretch, I don't write when I am busy. And busy is good. It keeps me occupied, it keeps me going. From one thing on to the next. Having plans and daily routine makes my life much more balanced and breathable.
But that's not the case anymore.
This is mainly a reaction post to this piece of music by Young K.
I was taking a break from a long day. I was tired of reading too many class materials and I just wanted to relax. The song provided me just that. Relaxation.
I really did want to lean onto the song, let it take away all my worries and wash away all the hard moments.
At the same time, it reminded me how human I am. I have been smiling, laughing, and generally enjoying my time even though my sister's passing wasn't that long ago.
The title was supposed to be longer. To be exact, it should be "Let's not fall in love", taken directly from Big Bang's song. Heh.
Something just brings me back to this song all the time. It's not just the melody (which is awesome by the way), it's the lyrics.
The reason the title of this post is not finished... is because of guilt.
