Maybe Stress Got To Me

#nowplaying Blue - Guilty

If it's wrong to tell the truth
Then what am I supposed to do
When all I want to do is speak my mind (speak my mind)
If it's wrong to do what's right
I'm prepared to testify
If loving you with all my hearts a crime
Then I'm guilty

That, honestly wasn't part of what I wanted to express at the moment. I just had this sudden feeling of sharing what I'm listening. It's not like I'm feeling guilty of anything.

          It's just that my friend, Amo-san asked me last few weeks about my love life. It's odd that anyone was interested at all. I didn't really tell him exactly like I wrote in "The Yucky Love Stuff" which also wasn't really everything. But I told him about entry no. 4; The one with faraway eyes.

Buses & Trains

Lately I've been re-playing the same song over and over. Uranna once told me that re-playing songs is one of the sign of looking past bad habit, brooding over things and most of the negative stuff.

          Maybe he's right, but sometimes, some people just can't really see the past as it is. Some might re-play it over and over, not for the "what if", but simply because there's no "STOP" or "PAUSE" button. Something one can't control by oneself.

Elle, "L"

Hey~ haven't been active for a while. I mean, I'm always, in out in out lately. Haha, whatever that means.

So well, like always, a lot had happened and as always, I don't know how to phrase it or just too lazy to talk about it.
Somehow, I'm always sad these days. Even when I'm happy, some parts of me still depressed about some things I don't know of. Odd, isn't it? I didn't get it myself. There are days that I just fall into this abyss that I can't seem to get out of. Worse, I don't even know what's causing it. Maybe using 'abyss' is too hardcore, but that's what I usually feel when I'm feeling it. On days like this, I miss Elle.

The Little Meanie Side of A Good Girl Gamer

What's that?

Well, in case you guys haven't know of it, but I'm sure you do. I play games, loads of it. Makes most normal life-living people out there call me a gamer.
Although I'm pretty sure I'm not those hardcore gamer. Since I get bored of games too fast and never seem to finish them.

So, in any case, the thing is, I love playing the good guy in games. I usually don't go to the dark side. I mean, picking up on lower levels player? That's low, man.
You can justify that it's just a game, it's just for fun and etc but what about WHY you even thought of doing it?

So yeah, that's what I'll say before I get too addicted and too bored.
Oh, you need to be addicted first. If you're bored, but not so addicted, you'll just gonna leave the game halfway and find something much more fun.
But if you're addicted, and bored, then you can't leave the game.... but you have to find another way to make it fun. That's when the mean side of you come.