Distorted Chords of the Now

So guys, do you remember Sonnet? I wrote about her some time ago, in Oh Sweet Sonnet.

Yea.. about her, I guess I'm no longer in her friend circle. Although, she will always be in mine. It's an odd declaration but I meant it. I don't know how to approach her before nor do I know it now. It was always her approaching me and I appreciated it. Maybe it's the jerk in me saying, but truly, I don't know how to start or maintain a conversation.

To Bloom in Adversity

“When he asked my grandmother if she would mind being poor, she said she would be happy just to have her daughter and himself: 'If you have love, even plain water is sweet.” —Jung Chang 

I read Wild Swans back in Standard 5. I was 11 years old. I read it discreetly because the book was in the adult collection, meaning it wasn't by recommendation that I found it, nor did anyone expect that I would have been interested in reading it.

I was though.

The Ego of a Passionate Reader

Reading isn’t studying. They’re just for fun.

-Twenty Faces-

(The Daughter of Twenty Faces)

          Back when I was a brat, I used to convince myself that I read because I love studying (or maybe just trying to convince myself that I'm smart, and all smart people read).
My surroundings helped that falsehood too.

Nijuu Mensou no Musume (TV 2008) | Opening 【OP】 | 『Kasumi』 by 369 Miroku

'霞' Kasumi | Mist by 369 Miroku ..................................................

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The part of the song that I really like (basically verses that will not get out of my head):

At Least I Have You by Sandy Lam

So I was browsing through fanfiction.net after uploading the 6th chapter of Not a Girl, Not a Woman, when I stumbled into SongFic101 by HermioneEmerson.

I tried her suggestion and fallen for the melody easily. Thought I'd share my joy with you guys too.

So here's At Least I Have You by Sandy Lam: Youtube MV, song lyrics, and english translation.

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至少还有你

Zhi Shao Huan You Ni

At Least I Have You by Sandy Lam (林忆莲)

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Can't Be Tamed [AMV] Kaitou Kid

For those who don't know me,
I can get a bit crazy

I'm a sucker for really nice AMV. Honestly this this not the best I've ever seen.

I was looking for some Magic Kaito AMV for fun when I found this:


The song is an altered pitch from Miley Cyrus - I Can't Be Tamed. I never heard of the song before I saw this.

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Disclaimer: I do not own the video, the music, or the characters in it.

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[AnY] How Betrayal Taste

“I will love you as misfortune loves orphans, as fire loves innocence, and as justice loves to sit and watch while everything goes wrong.”  

- Lemony Snicket -

First thing first. That quotation have nothing to do with this post. Saw it, liked it, and just had to share it.

          I've been reading historical fictions a lot all these while. I think one of the reason I found it even more interesting is the non-existing concept of 'freedom of speech'. You see, it keeps your mind wander on what is it that characters aren't saying. People can express so many things in nowadays social setting that they not only misuse the concept, they also mistaken their own expression. It's so easy to go public that most people forget that covert is also communication style.

          Currently, I am caught up in the plot of Akatsuki no Yona. Yona and her dragons doesn't really catch my attention despite being what's supposed to be the main story line. It's her earlier setting. Or more accurately, it's Hak and Soo Won that got me hooked.

For You

So...... hello.

Wow I have been depressing. I hate that part of me but it's good that it's not like that now. Whne I wake up this morning feeling so light, the first thing I wanted to do was message or call my friends. Then I realize my phone died, and my charger, unfortunately went missing again.

So dear friends who knew me, since only people who really are my closest friends actually knew about this blog, thank you for putting up with me.

Also to my sisters. I don't really know how to say sweet words but you two probably know what I wanted to express.

I love you all and that'll never change.

Detached

Sometimes I feel detached. I have to remind myself that my brother is my brother, my mother is my mother, my sister is my sister and the like.

Small Surprise

My baby cousin, Dan told me “Auntie, don’t give up”. Then he chant it repeatedly, playing I’m not sure what. I don’t know which cartoon he watched, but that took me by surprise.

Even a kid gave me life hints. Or was I hearing things?

A dream to End

I’ve been dreaming of death.

I’ve always been dreaming about it actually. I dreamt of my grandparents’ death, which was a nightmare until my late grandfather actually died. When I found out that those nightmares didn’t came true, just that death is inevitable, the dreams became just unpleasant visits. I’ve also been dreaming about the death of my own parents, my siblings, and my friends. These people are those that I do care about, so it’s disturbing to see them die one night, and seeing them alive the next.

The Freezing

I have shut down my own curiosity. I have chewed on it, and gulp it down.

My cousin-in-law came in the darkness of the night. I wasn’t well and didn’t realize she came. I was in my room trying to fight off the hallucination that haunted my sleepless nights. When morning came, I decided I should just fight off the drowsiness and show my disoriented morning face to my so-called family.

What I found staring at me however, was a guest.

"Through This Life" Goal

Lately I’ve been recalling lots of old memories.

When I was a child, my teenage brother used to tell me that every being must have an “I want to live without ---” goal as they live through their life. He told me he wanted as best as possible to live without regrets.

I told him, with every childish certainty and confidence that there will always be regret, either you will it or not. So I told him that not having regrets will not be my goal but I shall choose my own regret. Since his teenage intelligence insist that every human must have that goal, I declared mine to be to live without debt.

The Repercussion of Kind

I wish I have a time machine.

Years ago, it would have been for the past. Now, I want to go to the future.
Living in movies would be nice. I mean, despite all the terrible things that happened, fast forwarding it to 3 months, or 10 years later felt like an easy process.

They didn't warn us that during those years that they skipped, the agony is deep and real. And it's not something you can easily ask for help about.

Most things have a solution is you know the question.

Low Point

Sick again.

It’s been over a week again. I wonder why my cold usually last for very long. Maybe I knew. Maybe I don’t. On these sort of days, I always have this kind of argument with my own head. The other voice gets stronger.

I guess when you’re physically incapable, the mental wars will be in hyper mode.

Wedge

“People, I have discovered, are layers and layers of secrets. You believe you know them, that you understand them, but their motives are always hidden from you, buried in their own hearts. You will never know them, but sometimes you decide to trust them.” 

— Veronica Roth

Funny how that works. Recently my dad said I'm too quiet. Not in the sense that I'm shy quiet or doesn't talk. I'm pretty sure he meant that I'm not participating in any talk at all. Quite frankly, it's because I have absolutely no interest in anyone at the moment, no inquiries of the sort and, I don't want anyone to ask about me.

We Need Real Goodbye

I wish Elle didn't leave.
I'm glad he left.

In the slump?

Have you ever felt not doing anything?

It’s not exactly laziness. I mean, I’ve been lazy before. But that’s a feeling of not WANTing to do things.

Tire

I haven’t been updating lately, I’m pretty much ashamed of myself. 

I mean yearly goals and the like couldn’t even make me work, I wonder why…