Auntie, Julia and Grandma

           Dad and Mom went to Japan~ Bye bye otosan, okasan... I'm definitely very very very HAPPY because I can have the house all to myself. XD!!!! Well, I'm a bit... NO, aLOT jealous though since NIPPON is my favourite country. I really really wish I could go there~ So, I am indeed very jealous of my parents. However, I have the house to myself!!!!!! So, which should I choose? Die out of envy? Or out of happiness? Of course I'll choose happiness. I'm NOT that gloomy of a child to want to be envious each and every time.....

          Actually, my aunt and elder cousin are staying over, to keep an eye on us (me and my younger sis) and, or maybe this is their priority.. my grandparents. I was a little bit sad when I heard they were coming over. But now I'm not ^^. Instead, I grew fond of them. I like the way Julia talks and the FACT that I could tease her. Hehe. Can't really do that with my own elder sisters. And my aunt ^^!!! She cooks! That is super nice~ Even Huninis doesn't cook. And it made me laugh every time grandma will scold my aunt for very small things. And my aunt will be like, "ahhh, i did it because...." or "that's not even wrong!"... or "ala, ma.. everyone make mistakes". Huhu~ And that Julia always interupts between grandma and my aunt so it makes the whole situation much much more funnier~

Hehe....

             Seriously, MY AUNT, (heads shook) is addicted to computer games. GAMES!!!! and it's not some lame solitaire or any cards game~
It's the simulation game I downloaded that normally teenage girls would play ^^. Hahaahahahahaha~
Super funny~ And every time Julia said, "Ma, computer again??", she'll answer,"I've just open the computer. And I did all the chores too~".
       I'm telling you, she sounds like a total kid! She had been playing the computer for a few hours and she could say that it's only "just". And even telling her own child that she have done all the chores! Now that's what you called a switch of character. Kufukufukufukufu.....

          I'm loving them more and more each day ^^. Well, aunt could be strict sometimes too. But it's not the kind of strictness that makes you feel "urgh, there she goes again~". Though she's similar to Huninis, she's also the exact opposite. She's like the lovable Huninis~ Tee Hee... [that makes me feel bad]

          Now, 9.42 p.m, Julia is watching the TV, not arguing with grandma over the TV, though grandma is sleeping... Truth is, grandma switch on the TV but the TV will watch her instead. However, if we were to change the channel or switch it off, she'll wake up immediately, SCREAMING sometimes of our interrupting her show~
Aunt on the other hand, is playing games again, she even sacrifice her dinner~ Hehe...

But anyway, I think Julia has been suspicious that I am not doing my homework, which is true, so I'm gonna say bye bye now...

Addiction

It's 8.27 a.m according to mom's laptop.

          Hehe,... I slept at 2 something 'a.m.' 'today' just coz I was playing Virtual Family. It was a simple, testing ur patience kind of game. But, it's addictive. Well, every game is an addiction. I've just started playing it yesterday, in which I've slept at 4.55 a.m. My eyes are still hurting~ But I must say, if there's any time I could play it, I would! ^^

          There's a bit of bad thing I learnt from myself and that is addiction to the internet. I was playing Virtual Family to get my attention away from the internet. (Virtual Family is a PC game). I used the PC downstairs, one that is not connected to the internet. But, at the sight of my mom's laptop this morning, I used the 'stolen chance' to blog this. Hehe~

But now, I gotta go. I think my grandma has realise that I'm not downstairs for breakfast.

Dearling Miuhaya XD

           I've been waiting for Kimi ni Todoke Live Action for soooooo long.... And now it's finally out!!!!!!! the DVD was out on 11th of March and now it's out online.... ^^ But raw though~ Don't really have anything about it... I can't understand the story well... But I wanna watch Hiruma Miura so I just have to watch it even if it's without subtitle...

          I wish the Subtitled DVD is also in sale~ I wanna buy my darling Miura~
I wanna watch my dear Kazehaya....

Darling Miura + Dear Kazehaya = Dearling Miuhaya 

XXXD

Just kidding~ I still would prefer Miura Haruma as he is AND Kazehaya Shouta as he is.

Love the fact that Miura will be Kazehaya-kun ^^

I guess this pounding feeling is LOVE ??

huhu

Too Much

It's not really new. I made it on ermm,,.. when was it... maybe end of February?

But it's not anything sexual!!!Especially at the 2nd stanza~ There's NOTHING sexual about the poem... It might sound like one... But please think from a non perverted point.

It's a poem dedicated to Kim Joo Won...

Macrobrachium rosenbergii

This morning, Huninis said I was emotionless possibly heartless.

          Am I, I wonder? Whatever, it doesn't really matter. After all, she only said that because I just did what she told me to do and gave no comment or objection. She wishes for a robot, now she gets one.

          I still have lots more of articles to type out. I'm feeling very lazy now~ But I gotta finish it. I need to take the advantage of Ien's and Mom's not at home. Luckily, grandma and grandpa not at home too^^. Sooo, I have 'udang galah' for lunch ^^ ~ Father got the large kind from Kalimantan^^ I'm so happy that I don't feel like typing this blog anymore~ hoho..

Don't know what udang galah is? It's a Malay word for giant river prawn, the giant freshwater prawn, the Malaysian prawn or the cherabin, is a species of freshwater shrimp .
It's scientific name is Macrobrachium rosenbergii

I'm off for lunch now~
Ja ^^

SID - One Way

I've been listening to J-rock lately~ and surprisingly I find them nice to hear
and I thought I will only listen to J-pop..
haixxx...

Earl and Fairy - Have You Ever

OMG, my love for this anime grew more and more each day~
Now I can't stand it anymore~~~
I wanna watch!!!!

BRIGHT Killing Me Softly With His Song

Succumb to the Dark

It's a poem I wrote last night at 2.30 a.m. Well, around that, I guess.

It's not really a recommended poem to be read~
It's a depressing, frustrating and stupid not to mention distressing poem....
So don't click the link. It doesn't worth your time~

Skip Beat! (スキップ・ビート! ) [PV] Prisoner

I love Shou ^^
Though it's unlikely, I wish Kyoko will end up with Shou~

BRIGHT- I'll be there PV

This is the Japanese girl group I've been liking for a few months now~
Love their song ......
Listen to it^^

Talking Again ^^

          Guess what? Elle started to talk again ^^. He's still unpleasant as ever like normal, thank God. For now I don't think I wanted to ask him what happened to his this past few weeks. Let him be natural with me again for as long as he wants. And when he's ready to talk, then I'll listen. However, when I think back at it, I think it was really my fault that made him gone quiet. It must be the remark I made.
 
          I had a feeling that whenever I tried to be serious, I mean over serious or the exact opposite, he'll be disagreeing with everything. Then, since he doesn't argue with me, he chooses to play silent. If my theory is true, then it worked. I hate Elle for always getting things right. He started talking when I was feeling like throwing all the school work away. He told me to think straight and he called me stupid. That's first. We'll it's not like I actually listen to him. I ignored him and tried, TRIED to take a nap. But suddenly he came to me and stared. Then he sigh, looking at my papers and told me that he'll help me with it. Even right now, though he doesn't agree with me using the com. while doing homework, he's still waiting until I finish typing and get back to my work.

Thanks Elle. It'll be a long night since I got a lot of those papers but if you really want to accompany me until I finish all of it then I'm really happy and have nothing else to say but thanks ^^

Song Ji Eun - Going Crazy (미친거니) [english subs + romanization + hangul]

I love this song ^^
Never would have expected the ending of the video~

Adefuwa Kuroli ; The First Phase : Chapter 4

UPDATES!!!!!!!!!! I've just finished the script for school so I continued the story~ ah,,.. now there's still more to be done so chou~ adiue~

Teasing the Lucky France Trip

          Elle/Eli girl is going to FRANCE!!!!!! Nope, to be exact, she went to France already. Maybe. She told me that her flight is tonight. I didn't ask her the time though. Not that it's really necessary. Her mom came to school this morning to pick she and her sister up. When I saw her mom, coincidentally she was there, having photo shoots. So she told her mom, "Ma, ma! That's Aa!". And since I'm with another girl, Raish, she continued, "And this is Raish, my classmate." The first thing that came to my mind is,.. huh, you didn't even tell her that I'm your classmate too. But then it struck me! She must have told her mom something about me. And it's proven when her mom said, "ah,.. so this is Aa." If this isn't obvious, she grins and told her, "Yeah, the one I told you^^". See?

          So her mom and I chat for a while. Just a very short while. She then told me about how excited she is to be having a holiday in France. Since Raish lived there before, she joined in and started to suggest different places of interest. Then she told her about the food that Elle/Eli mother must definitely try. Well, they were so happy to talk that I don't dare to butt in. After all, I know VERY VERY little of France. But it was nice to hear them talked about it. Soon after the mother left, I decided to give Raish a bit of revenge for leaving me out in her long talk. So I told her, "France must be nice.. Too bad I don't know anything of it". She should have realize that I was just playing around. But she took it and felt bad. Which in turn made me feel bad. She started to apologize but I stopped her. I just let out a laugh and told her of my failed revenge.

        Just the Elle/Eli girl ran to us, asking where her mom is. So we told her that her mother left. It was very funny to see Elle/Eli girl went panic. She look like one anime character which visible sweats out of nervousness. But it seems that her mother did left. Her mother went elsewhere and decided not to wait for her. When her sister heard of this, her face fell. Froggie-teacher was there and laugh about it and called their mother. She said, "Come fetch your two distress daughters. If you leave them here, I might have to deal with two crying babies because their parents decided to go for honeymoon in France and leave them home alone". Elle/Eli girl and her sister gave Froggie-teacher a look. However that Froggie-teacher was even more amused and invited the rest of the magazine committee student who were there to tease them more. At last, their parents came. They just went out to buy something. Still, sometimes it's fun to make a hill out of a mole.

          I invited Hime, Chii and NaO to come to my house during the March break. To study History. Huhu~ I can't afford to play with Huninis around ^^ ~ And I want to study anyway~ I don't want to fail anymore subjects T^T.

Is Blood thicker?

           It was kinda' a weird week. First, I never expected that Hime will read this blog of mine but it seems like she did. And BAM! She asked me about it. Maybe because I mention NaO. I doubt it though. Well, I don't really want to tell her actually, sorry Hime if you're reading this. I know, though you said it's nothing, that you have things on your mind too. And it's not like I'm hiding this from you because you are hiding things from me. Hey, everyone is allowed to have secrets~ It's just that I want you to settle your own problem first. Since I'm unreliable and unable to help pretty much everything, so I wouldn't want to cause you more worry. So DON'T ask me anything, please~

          Second, it seems like Sienna also read this. It's not like I didn't expect that. I did purposely linked this to my other account so that "someone" would read. But I guess that person, though many times I have been hinting of my blog, even updating it in front of her, that person doesn't care much about what I do as long as I'm under her control. Maybe puppet is another term for it. Personally, I don't think puppet fits the situation. How do you put it? That person wants be seen not heard. Yeah, that may fits it. She wants me to be visible and always there, but she cares not of what my say in it. Can't blame her much for it, since she had her hands full with her dear apple of the eye. One that she attentively, unfailingly always want to know, to understand more about. Not that I or my sisters worth much. Maybe.

          That's not the point~ Why am I typing rubbish? I meant to say that I didn't expect Sienna not getting mad at me~ Seriously. I thought she's going to give me one long speech which might have A BIG possibility of not being heard by myself, about whatever I typed here. Instead, all she said was not to make it public~ I meant the linking it to my other account where "that person" might saw. I wish! She should see it! She should be curious enough to click the link! Ah, but she didn't. Whatever, it's not like I care anymore. I wonder if I'm not home, if I'm living far away, it would be better for both of us. It should work. We should be having an unbreakable bond. Yet, in this case, this bond had developed into something else. So maybe, if I'm away, I might want to see her instead of not wanting to look in her face and fake a laugh and smile everyday. Literally everyday. Or maybe she might miss me even for a bit, even if it's just for the sake of the undone chores like how she did with Sienna and Tazia. Just a bit, I wish she would not think of how useless or "goblok" I was.

          I've been retreating to my room every single day, only coming out to see grandfather and grandmother. Or when grandmother told me to eat. There's not much fun in staying out of the room. It doesn't matter to me if Huninis going to shout at me for locking myself in my room all day, or that I'm getting fat etc. It really doesn't. Because even if I do get out of the room, Huninis will still shout at me for the things that I did not do, I do, I haven't do and that I have done. Who cares anymore~

          At this point, I wonder who Huninis really is to me.

That Dishonest Part

           NaO came to my house today. Since Huninis went to Penang with Ien to deal with visa things before she flies to Japan for Sienna's graduation, I asked NaO to stay for the night. And her mom gives a green light so she stayed the night. Huhu, NaO is just beside me sleeping soundlessly, don't know if she dream of anything. Well, if you're reading this later on NaO, I just want to say thanks for today. If you didn't come, I might be one mad woman getting frustrated over every little things that had happened today.

          I think Elle has a problem. I want him to tell me but ah, the obvious annoying Elle not gonna spill a bean! Haixxx,..... I miss him. Truth is he didn't talk much even before but now,... he became almost mute. Hope he's not deaf. While NaO was chatting with me in the dining hall, Elle just sat and stare. He's not even trying to be polite by going away. I know that NaO can't see him but still, it was uncomfortable for me. By the way, I told NaO almost, just almost everything about myself. No, maybe I told her 1/3 of the important things. I felt that if I tell her too much, that I'll be depending on her like I depend on the noname voice. I never really call him anything. Just a no name voice. Felt like if I ever give him a name, I might not wonder or curious to know his real name. Therefore, until he tells me himself, he'll just be another noname.

          NaO actually listen what I said. I thought, really do thought that everyone will thing that I'm crazy if I ever confess on having this problem. I consider it a mental illness. I guess that's why I'm so sensitive to any mental illness. But I was, and probably still am really dishonest. Never telling the whole truth, and keeping things to myself. Maybe that's why I'm left out. Or ignorant. I really love my friends but I can't seem to have the confidence of being very close to them. Maybe that's why Hime doesn't share her situation with me. Though it hurt a bit, maybe more, but I kinda' deserves it. After all, I don't tell her anything either. Chii mo. Noname would probably be disappointed with how I grew up to be. Oh yeah, I noticed that Fritz were doing something while I was in the dining hall with NaO. And LaRich, haha. Caught him glancing over at NaO. I wonder if any one of them would do anything if they sees Chii. Too bad they haven't met Chii. I would like to know their views on her. Hime mo. Maybe Fritz would. Haha, Fritz is giving me a glare. Did he sense I wrote something about him?

          That poem I wrote, I'll dedicate it too them. I'll fix it. Then hopefully I'll have the courage to send it for publishing in  the school magazine. Hopefully they would understand. I talk to Sasha about our future. And we kinda' agree with one thing : we might not WANT to contact our friends right now no matter how close we are. Of course, our reasons differ. Mine would be because I have no confidence that I could stand watching them become further apart from me from the short distance I'll be. I'm really building a wall. It's too keep myself safe, actually. I guess that incident with Flower and Soyain from 7 years back was still too much for me. And the same as what happen 5 years ago with Saru and just a year after, with Mimi-chan. I learn my lesson. Though it was a stupid thing and not the right moral value, and though I know of this, I will still take it as a lesson.

          Just like how Kyoko secure her box by locking it over and over again, I secure my heart by shutting it tight, only letting tiny pores to open so that it could still breath and help me face this big reality world.

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listening to : Co-Ed School - I Love You A Thousand Times

       

Kyoko's hearth

This is the first AMV that i heard in Bulgarian~
It's very nice,.. hope I could understand it though

Perfection 태완미 (Korean Ver.) - Super Junior M

Finally the Kor. version came out~
and with good subs too ^^

Good news, BAD news

           I'm really very annoyed and mad. My anger has reach its peak. Luckily for that baka Huninis, I hold it so that it won't go over the limit. I wish I could throw her in the ocean right now. If not, just set her to fire. God, why is she Uranna's wife anyway. I shall be patience and endured whatever that ***** did for Uranna's sake. I really want to kill her. No, that would be too much. I hate her enough to not care what she'll become~ I'm not gonna dirty my hands for her pathetic, of no importance life.

          Let's just talk on other things :
  Good news is, I'm going for Chess competition with Elle/Eli girl. Bad news is, though it's suppose to be a sure thing, but the Froggie-sensei just add another girl in. So now, we had to compete each other first before 2 people gets to go for the competition. Unlucky me, I'm not in the chess club, and had low chance of getting chosen. Grr, now I'm mad again.

          So, good news is that I manage to be busy in a good way. Bad news is, I'm getting envious of Elle/Eli girl 'cause she's new yet she's busier than I am. In a good way. And that's bad because I was part of the reason that she got all these chances yet now I'm jealous for actually giving her the chances. Why is all the good news only one sentence? Grr...

          Good news is, I'm getting diligent again and wants to do my homework and studies properly. And this happy news lift my spirit so much that I turn on the radio quite loud. Bad news is, because of that, that Huninis ***** cursed and accused me of twisted things! Ahh, forget it!!!!!

          Another good news is that plan of going to the Old Folks Home is progressing well, after the many push I did. Yet, bad news is, one of the teacher in charge is NOT doing her job, putting us on hold, and wanted unreasonable things that could hurt other when she want others not to hurt her student and self. And making me mad, and annoyed and kinda' lost my respect for her. Sorry for all teachers out there, but please understand, your students are human. They have feelings too. They have the amount of task they could handle too. And note this : I was told that we could actually sue the teachers and school if they give too many work until we're unable to play, laugh, and have enough sleep. Of course, I had no idea if that's true. I was told that it comes under child's right.

          Oh, and I failed my Physics exam. Luckily, I'm a good kid who finish her homework and did an excellent work on notes. Thus I got bonus marks and ended up not failing. But it's still a shame though.

There's so much I want to say but I better get back to my homework if not I'll get lazy again.

I'm listening to Yubiwa by Maaya Sakamoto