Are we forever busy? - Nation | The Star Online

December makes one think about time and what we have done or not done over the past year.

It's December and we know that everyone is saying: “Wah, December already. The year just flew by, didn't it?”

The analytical person in me will reply: “You repeat yourself every year. I don't think it went any faster. It's just a perception.”

Time, of course, cannot move faster or slower. We are, after all, blessed with the same amount of it daily.

Contribute to Yourself

Time passes and now it's December. I have many plans for November but in the end, it's just some un-executed plans.

          Reaching the last month of the year makes me a bit sad. It's like a remembrance that I have wasted those passing months. True, I stayed to my goal, so why would I consider those times wasted? Still, telling yourself you have done great is like lying that your knowledge is as much as the pile of books in your home. You can relate to these right?

Raihan - Sesungguhnya

Translation

26 - 10 - 2012

Yep, that's the date.

That was when Pika & Piko are still a week old. Now? Piko will be a month old tomorrow. Pika? She missed by a day.

Pika died earlier today around 4 pm. Virus attack.

The new Kuros'

I think Huninis changed, a bit.
     A positive change.
            Alhamdulillah (Thank you Allah).

So... guess what?
We got our Kuro back!!!!
   We => My siblings and I.

What's Kuro? Heh.heh.heh.

Oh Sweet Sonnet ヾ(￣ー￣)X(^∇^)ゞ

Wrote a SONNET for literature class. Themed love. So I wrote with grandpa in mind. I missed him.

Well anyway, something quite touching happened.
Not the biggest of matter, not anything big and important, but something sweet.
It's like eating red-bean pau which someone had put some hazelnut inside. And it caught you by surprise, and you'll end up smiling.
        That sort of sweet and touching thing. Haha.

Re-Setting Resolve

Due to many things I guess, I kinda' did something out of MY norm.
Which, for me, is bad.

          I had have a busy week. Even now, I still have another seminar to attend in a few hours. More than a few, maybe. Three events, both mind challenging so far, and the third might be an even greater provocation to the mind.
So basically, my mind is tired. Plus with all the homework and assignments, yeah, I am really very tired.

          So when I got back, thinking only to feel my bed on yesterday's late evening, I wasn't really in my right mind when my friend, Fish entered my room asking me to accompany her that for a while. I just followed, in the state that I am, not thinking of anything. While waiting in her room, I fell asleep. Then she woke me up just to ask, "Hey, when you went out earlier, did you bring your keys?". That arise because my roommate had a program later that night.

          Knowing full well that I don't have them with me, I left Fish's room, swaying back to mine, praying that my roommate left the door unlocked. Good for me, she listened to my advice - which is to always lock the door when there's no one inside. My roommate have this problem of always leaving the door unlock. However, although it is good, this just happened at the wrong time, what a misery turn of events.

When It Worked Out

Recently, I did that "desk makeover". If you don't already know bout that, you can check it here.

One of the objective of me doing all that, is to make me gain spirits so that I study super duper well. And so that I won't procrastinate.

Well, it worked. I reached my objective.

Circle in need.

There are two types of friends I've been told by old old grandfathers, by teachers, by fictions, by documentaries, by quotes, by self and by the so-called friends.

First, is the friend in need.
Second, the friend with need.

The best part of life is that friends with needs are very easy to identify. Very very easy. After all, the friend in need is also the friend with need.
But the friend with need is not a friend in need.

Literary Line-up

Pre-Calculus and Introduction to Literature, that's what I've learnt after the 2nd week of this semester. For some reason, the other 2 classes will be delayed. And here I am, mourning for the upcoming race of replacement classes. (┳Д┳)

So anyway,
          Due to many factors I wish not to type out - basically because I'm least diligent this morning - I've gotten myself energy bars! And that was for breakfast!

Ok ok, I don't really have much to share this time.
  But I'm just so super excited to read these: (the line-up of this semester's read a.k.a literature) Ｏ(≧∇≦)Ｏ

Desk makeover

I've been feeling down last sem, and got into a state where I don't even know how to cheer myself up.

So this sem, I'm doing a makeover on my desk.
  This way, I don't need to access the net just to see these bishounens that could cheer me up ^^

Lookie: behold!

Just finished decorating this an hour ago :D

So, what do you think? Hehe~ ok, I'm gonna go back to studyin :)

Later~

Puteri Gunung Ledang Parody

Oh, did I ever tell?

I was part of the Drama & Theater co-curriculum group. Haha, desho? Don't laugh though.

Well anyway, here's the script that I wrote:
   do tell me if it's any good ^^

To read => Puteri Gunung Ledang Parody

Cake-Sorry-Flaw

Today will be the start of a new semester. I'm looking forward to it. (∩_∩)

          I hope being busy could make me forget a few things. I meant kept my mind off things that's pretty much a big bother.
Anyway, how are you guys?

Yesterday, I think it was yesterday or the day before, something happened in the house. Nothing big, nothing unusual, but because it was something that is basically nothing, something stirred. There's this funny feeling all of us had that we just shrugged off about it and left everything in silent.

          So later that evening, Tazia and I went out somewhere. We're supposed to go and pick up our ordered cakes. Or her cake, in precise word. (¬‿¬)

Well anyway, we went out. Like usual with Tazia, conversation came out naturally, about lots of stuff; jumping from one topic to another. However, all of the sudden she said, "Actually, I'm jealous of you".

Buono! 『初恋サイダー』 (MV) [Hatsukoi Cider]

Disclaimer: I do not own this video

Source: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=JmTA0mPjnwE&feature=related

Lyrics & Translation

「キスをあげるよ」 

"KISU wo ageru yo" 

"I'll give you a kiss"

今　気付いた想い

Ima kizuita omoi 

I just realized my love

どんな言葉でも足りないから

Donna kotoba demo tarinai kara 

That is beyond words

1 2 3 4 !

Tsubasa: The Last Time

This one mostly on Tokyo Revelation OVA.



I kinda feel this kind of emotion at the moment.
Haha
Excuse me for being pathetic.

Disclaimer: I do not own the video.

Source: YouTube 

Keeping Oneself

I think everyone know how important it is to be yourself.

I'm not the best example though. After all, one of my trait is that I'm good at ignoring people, things etc. And that, sincerely, I know it's bad. But that's how I prefer myself to do. Instead of using the annoying method of quarreling till no end, it's better to ignore certain things right?
      No, on second thought, don't agree with me.

But in any case, being yourself is being you, right? If you try to be someone else, then this is the question I'll ask, "Where are you?". So, what about being conscious of what others are talking about you?

Fig & Olive

Hey you guys again! Haha, sorry I haven't been updating much when I said I would last few months. When was it, I wonder? Haha.. (just so you know, this is called a guilty laugh- tee hee, an an embarrassed laugh- not that it's necessary to tell..)

Ok, in any case, once upon a time, I did mention that I was going to recap things right? Well, as for now, let's recap the days I spent during before the time I started my Foundation course. Yup^^ the short month I went working.

Oh, by the way, I've finished my 1st semester, currently on semester holiday. And will be continuing my 2nd sem next week.

Here goes:

A case of Giving

Good news about today is..... I finished my script and articles!!!! YEA!!!

Here's the not so though:

          My department and I was in-charge for Iftar today.. oh wait, I meant yesterday. We were all first timers in doing these sort of things. Unfortunately, there was another Iftar held a few blocks away. Since our Iftar will be ongoing throughout Ramadhan while the other one is a one day event together with some contest, our High Com thought that just for that day, less people will be coming to the mosque for Iftar.

Oh wrong they were.

Welcome Ramadhan

Opps~ I know it's a bit late.

But Happy Ramadhan to all Muslims out there. Let's strive to be a better ummah, and let's chase ibadah till we drop ;)

The thing about control

Ok, honestly, it's really odd to post something after I didn't do so for long. Well that's my fault anyway. Oh, currently I'm listening to Aoyama Thelma ft SouljaBoy - Sobani Iru Ne.

         I have been enjoying my university life, really. I guess it's not that hyper free social life that you guys might be thinking. Nope. Just pure interesting involvement in clubs. What to do? I'm a freak when it comes to doing thing that I like. Even if my body can't handle it, I would still push myself to do it.

          Well, here's how it it: Everything comes with a price. The price I pay for enjoying club activities is the superb weariness. I guess that made me get either over crazy or easily irritated. Of course I prefer the first right? Even though logically, being crazy is bad, it's actually a positive thing as compared to getting irritated easily. But recently, since my being crazy also meant being overly happy and good, I felt that a certain someone is taking advantage of that.

The "he"

Ok, here I am one again.
LOL, of course :) it's my blog right? lalalalala

           Ok. I have a reason as to why I post today. Coming from an all girls school, I found it a bit odd when I mingle around men in university. Well, the worst thing would be the fact that my university have the ratio of 4:1 or 3:1 (can't remember) of men to women.
That means that the population of men are at least triple the number of women.

Another Step

Well, hello everyone^^ How long has it been since I last posted? .. A month?! Oh even worse, my last real post was on February. That's 4 months ago. So... did you miss me? Blee, coming from you guys, I don't think you do.

          In 4 months, a lot have happened. Duh, that's just obvious right? Unless I live in a cave though. But I do feel that cavemen adventures are even more interesting in 4 months. Well, that's what I feel, not like I ever actually meet any cavemen before. Maybe it'll be interesting if I could date one. Tee hee.

So, any idea what I'll be talking 'bout today?
          First, let me do a recap. (Now it sounds like I'm actually giving a speech - lol) Well, I went to work after I got my driving license. Oh yea, I got my driving license!!! Thrilling isn't it^^ huhu~ Cool, right? Or, did I already told you guys bout that? Dang! That's why you're not jumping in excitement like I do. Or maybe you're just jealous~ :p

Oh, back to the story.
          So, I went to work part time. I am a part-timer but I actually worked full time. Imagine my pay~ hehe, plus all the overtime, I'm basically draining my boss, since she have to pay me higher than her full-timers. I'm bad, aren't I? Whatever, I only worked there for 2 months anyway. Haha, cause' after that I enroll in University^^
Enough the straying,
               Ok, I'm not really typing this to share those working time where I have to smile and greet my customers all day. There were some interesting events but let's just skip that until another time when I feel like recapping that.

So, as the picture has changed, you should have able to guess, right? I'm in university now^^ huhu. Ok, yes, maybe I'm over excited. Maybe. Maybe not. No, honestly, I AM!! I'm already here for a month but that doesn't really decrease my excitement. I totally love the library. They call it IRC (Information Resource Centre) though.

Information Resource Centre, University of Technology PETRONAS

The inside view (night)

The outer view  (night)

   
           I'm pretty much relaxed now, that's why I'm a bit hyper. I've just finished my test so I planned to do some more studying but then I'm too happy to even focus. Thus, I decided to update this blog to throw all the unspoken words. Duh, you can't really scream in the library.

          So, all that typing earlier was just introduction. Haha, tired of it? What to do, that's just how I ramble. Let's get back to business.

          When I first came, most of the seniors here - my orientation facilitators - I think, are good people. It made me wonder why everyone was worrying 'bout social issues. Well, that is until I saw myself what happen after orientation. Good, kind, caring seniors do exist. However, the opposite probably exist in larger numbers. The numbers that I was blind to when I first came. Well, not just seniors though. Even my peers have their social 'misguidance' I guess. Haha, what a way to put it.

          Oh, anyway, I was involved in the self-reflection night (I think they phrase it wrongly - in any case, it's what we know as Malam Kebudayaan). I was the narrator for our sket. Or pantomime. I'm not too sure what it is actually. I met a few interesting people, some of who I befriended. I seriously love them. They're fun and sometimes, although it's not as how it was with Sasha, our conversation will be mind provoking. And you know I love that sort of conversation. I have to admit, I thought I won't encounter this sort of person, but I did :)

          Oh, then I met Beras friend. Have I told you guys bout him? He's a friend I met while working. He did say before that his friends are fun but I was never too convinced how fun is that. Afterall, my degree of fun have always been different than the rest. But they're fun in a way :) Although honestly, I don't understand most of their conversation, but just listening to it is relaxing. Not that I could explain to you why anyway.

          Oh the assignments? To be honest, I think my secondary school gave even more homework than the lecturers here. Still, it's pretty tough and energy-draining to finish up the assignments. I guess that's cause' there's so much reading, researching and thinking to be done in one piece of paper. That's a shiver.

           As for clubs, I joined Rakan Masjid, literally translated as "Friends of the Mosque". :) And, there's an 'and' there. Haha. I'm also part of SIFE. and HOT. Well, you can google SIFE so don't let me do any amateur explaination 'bout it. HOT stands for Heart of Tronoh. Tronoh is a place, by the way. The University is in Tronoh. And HOT is the university bulletin/magazine. I'm the reporter^^. Well, pray I can still study excellently.

This is my leap. I hope I do very well. Pray for me. 

            I'm having fun everyday. I mean it. Only, I'm also very tired everyday. Haha. Well, I think I'm pretty toned down a bit so I should resume studying. Later, guys^^. And girls. Hehe.

P/S : by the way, I do not own the pictures. Since I don't have a camera, I just 'borrowed' the pictures. Credit goes to the owner.

The ------- day

First off, I'm furthering my studies tomorrow.
Second, sorry the blog's not updated for a month. I don't have a laptop or pc and there's no internet connection all the while I was living in Subang.

          Not that I have much to say, ... no, actually I have lots to tell, but I don't know where to start, plus, I don't think the story would be organized. There's also this case in which I couldn't think of what to type even though the event is in my head, playing and replaying all over again.
          In short, I'm not recapping any event that happened in the month I was in Subang today.

So, as to what am I doing here really have no validly proper answer. I'm simply acting as of I actually update this blog. Or maybe I'm just bored.

You'll get some substance in the next post, I think.

Thanks for reading this pointless ramble. I hope you're not irritated.

Later.

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You know how I'm too deeply attached to stories I've read or watched? I especially love the kind of stories that resonates deep within. The kind that doesn't need overly handsome characters that would melt my heart to make me like 'em.

Most of the stories(novels) I've read have these sort of feeling. As for movies, nah, usually, the impression didn't last for even a day.
          I guess that's coz I choose my novel quite well^^, excuse me if I voluntarily praise myself. *laugh* . As for movies, the factors as to why I don't enjoy them much could be because:

1. I don't watch movies that much.
2. I usually don't care what movie was played.
3. Normally, I just watched what others wanted to watch.
4. They're just something for me to see, and forget the next day.
5. I'm just curious why everyone seem to like them.
6. The advertisement is a whole lot better than the real show.

So yeah, that concludes why movies doesn't leave a deep long lasting memory to me. Not all though. I still love all 3 of The Lord of The Rings movies.

          But anime and manga differs to me. I read/watched a variety of them ranging from different genres. Most anime I choose to watch were interesting and something I would say "great" after it ends. Funnily however, the ones I choose rarely leave me attached to it for months or years. The kind of anime that made a deep long lasting I-don't-know-how-to-explain feeling in me are usually the one recommended. By the most annoying, irritating and meddlesome of a sister. She's not really the first person to introduce the world of manga/anime to me but she's the one who made me realize the joy of watching 'em. Blergh, that sounds annoying.

          The recent anime that I watched that still lingers would be Seirei no Moribito (Guardian of the Sacred Spirit) and Kemono no Souja, Erin (Beastinarian Erin). Those were recommended by that certain annoying sister. The one from long ago would be Sailormoon(manga), though no one really recommend it to me, but it's thanks to Hime that I was able to read that. And there's Code Geass, recommended by Hime. Still love it so much that I rewatched it many many times . Not just love, it's that swirling feeling that always made me think. Or daydream. Haha. And there's a few more but I don't really want to mention all, right? It would take hours and hours or maybe days and weeks to list all of 'em down.

          So basically, why did I start talking about this? That would be due to Saiunkoku Monogatari. I first watched the anime when Animax was still a new channel on Astro. I think that was 6 years ago. At first, it was just a normal like. But then I found out it have a second season, and so I continued till the second season. I only remember bits of it at that time. But maybe 4 or 3 years ago, I rewatched it. DANG, my views completely changed! When I watched it as a kid, I probably don't understand it that much. Since then, I've been rewatching it every year. And since I borrowed the series from my aunt last year, I've been rewatching it every month!

           Siena said she lost interest in it because almost all the guys in the series fell for Shuurei. And I don't remember what else. Actually, I thought so at first too. But then, the first time I rewatched it was because I got that fan-girl disease for Seiran. Haha. The next time I watched it, I kinda' understood Ryuuki's point of view and since I changed my target to General Ran. But the next time I watched it, I kinda' empathize with more characters and find the series even more interesting, not to mention the pain Ryuuki felt seemed more and more real. That's why I couldn't stop. I've been rewatching the series countless of times and I still feel hopelessly dense about the characters. As for Ryuuki, the more I understand his character, the painful it gets. I wanted to sympathize with him but if I do so, won't it be an insult to his effort? This might sound crazy since it's just anime but I sincerely feel like that.

          Sometimes I wonder if I treat reality the way I treat those novels and anime. When I see people in pain, I would pray hard for them or support them from the background. It just didn't feel like me to meddle in their business. The worst is, if they are trying hard, I refuse to sympathize because I feel that it's an insult to their hard work. I wonder if my way of thinking is severely wrong. And if they're not, even when they've been given a push or more, then I wouldn't even care. In this life, you determine how you want to walk your path, right? So if these people are given encouragement, are helped in various ways and still doesn't change, or try their best to change, what other treatment should they receive?

          In the past, due to stupidity and such narrow views, I would sympathize with myself. But you know, sympathizing with yourself is the same as blaming others for your fate. Or blaming fate itself. However, in doing so, you're just being pathetic. I forgot from which anime I heard this, 

"If you hate your fate, change it!" 

Allah gave us trials so we could overcome them, right? I'm not going to say that I've overcome my hurdle in life. Heck, there's plenty I haven't. I don't even have the confidence to say that I won't give up. I might will.

          However, as long as I live, I want to fall back to my own effort, my own hard work. If I fail, that's because I didn't give much effort in it. If I succeed, then maybe my way of doing things was right all along. If the going gets tough, and I feel like giving up, I would remember Kyoko and want to try my best to simply knock down the wall obstucting my path instead of looking for another way out.

          I'm not sure if you understand me but I am thankful to Allah because my experience have made me someone who could empathize well. I have no room for sympathy and I might and have been told I'm cold and harsh for that. Sometimes those words are true, I won't deny it. I'm not such a soft, kind girl in the first place. The least I have is the pride that if I ever did or will help someone, it's not due to sympathy. They just deserve the help, that's all there is to it.

Ehehe, so that all for now. Thanks for reading.

p/s : I actually just wanted to talk

about Ryuuki but I wonder

how it got dragged on.

 Hehe.

Rambling Events

So, here's another start of my random rambling again. For those who had been continuously reading them, seriously, THANKS^^.

Hmm... let's talk about recent event:

          On Valentine's Day (14/2), I've been invited to Chii's house. At first, "they" (Chii and NaO) told me that we're (myself, them, and Hime) eating out. Pizza. So, I told them, "Let me ask Pakcik Damur if I have Driving License on that day". So I went and ask and Pakcik Damur and he said "Nope, no class that day". But then he ask me why, and whether I made plans etc. Yeah, I said. So this pakcik gave me this one look that explain it all- he thought I have a boyfriend. Figures, who had a date with girlfriends on Valentine? Haha, but I don't celebrate Valentine so it's just another odinary day to me anyway^^. I guess he's right to be worried. But he should really not jump to conclusion.

          Whatever, so anyway, they also said that we'll be baking some chocolates too. Yay, I cheered. Never have I bake any chocolate. Heh. But when I arrived, they were sitting around with Chii playing her games [don't remember the title]. Buuh, where's the so called chocolate enthusias? So then, we goofed around for not-exactly a bit, if you know what I meant. After a while -don't remember who-, someone brought up about the pizza. But by then, Chii's mother were coming back. So we thought of just ordering the pizza. Heh, typical. But DUM DUM DUM, Chii's mother came home and made lunch for us. So screw the pizza. Haha. Usually things don't turn out as planned anyway^^.

          I kinda', although I don't think so, forced Chii to let me play her PS3. Hehe, so I guess, because she let me play 'em, the whole trip turns out super worthwhile. I only played one game though - Sengoku; BASARA. I read them somewhere when I was researching about Sanada Juuyushi. Heh, so OBVIOUSLY, I played Sanada Yukimura's character. I played "easy" coz I'm a beginner and such, but I won^^ hehe~ SO either way, just when I was excited about wanting to play Final Fantasy [whatever number I don't know], NaO's dad arrived. I'm going back home with her so.. aww, kinda sigh quietly T^T.

That's that.

          Then I had my driving lesson the next next day. Buu, it didn't really turn out that well. Kinda' embarrassing, if I had to admit. But I won't be defeated by a few embarrassing moments. Who cares if most of the instructor presents were chuckling away. Blergh, I'm a newbie so it's only natural not to have any knowledge they called common. Buh, what's so common about it anyway? *sulking*

          So on yesterday's lesson, I improved greatly. Although of course not as great as the skillful them, but as someone who starts from ZERO, my improvement was commendable, said the motorcycle instructor though.

Well, that's for me to keep in my memoirs.

Until some other time later, JA!

The Standard of a Pretty Boy

We all know how to set our own standard on things right? Tee hee, so I was joking about it with my grandmother.

          My eldest sister is basically of age for marriage. So my grandmother and mother was hoping that she gets married so very soon. I don't know if she's not interested or what, but in mine and my siblings opinion, she's a study freak. She probably loves to study and work so much that even if she love someone, she would choose her career or studies first. [Sorry Siena, if it's not true] I don't think that's a big deal though. Many girls marry at 30's nowadays right? Although, at that age, you're not a girl. A woman. Yucks, it hurts to be old.. And I'm on my way to that lane *sobs*.

          The thing about grandmothers, mothers, aunts and all the middle-aged woman who have children out there is the fact that they want their children to get married. As soon as they're eligible. Puh, not all eligible woman have found the right guy, you know? Well,  that's that. So when my eldest called us earlier, my grandmother told her to go find Mr. Right. Since I was the one doing the listening, and not the one pressured, it's just so hilarious. Probably that's coz I'm also in a good mood. Haha. But then my grandma said, "Just get who you like". Haha, I laughed again. Who she like? There's definitely a catch after that.

           Sure enough. Then she starts describing the characteristic she don't want in my sister so-called future partner. From personality to genetic traits! Hahaha!! Pity those whose pressure. And they are also at the age where getting a job is the utmost necessity for an independant lives. To think that all these years we were taught to be indepentdant ladies until the word "independant" itself must be grinded in our core head... now, when they are facing the world indepentdantly, these aged woman who supposedly raised them said, "Get a husband!" What's the point of making us super indepentdant then?

          I'm not saying that their thinking is wrong though. But I don't think a woman ought to be pressured to find the right guy. If so, they might just make the wrong choice in their rush and what a disaster the marriage would be! Oh wait, why did the topic come to this?

          So, after lunch, my mother suddenly brought up Tazia's case. That sister always dreamed of having the most perfect guy, especially in looks. But she ended up dating a "not-so" good looking person. Though, if you ask me, that guy is almost to perfection that it annoys me so much. He's brainiac, and a great athelete. Plus, he's not so bad in cooking. He's good with pastry too. And he does care for her. But still, my mom said, "why did she end up with that sort of looking guy?" with a sigh.

          Usually, I would laugh it off. Like Tazia would. She always complain about DL (the guy) 's look. He brag that he's handsome so we would definitely laugh at his face and says he's not! It was hilarious. But now, I felt so bad. When my mom said it, I detect that she's not joking. She meant he was not good looking. My thoughts went "whaaaat??" I hate to admit, but Tazia did found a guy with good values. How can my mom said such things? Good looks are not everything. My grandmother did say all the standards to Siena but though she was hoping, she's also joking.

          I don't wanna show how a shocked and half-angry I was, so I simply said, "I know. That's why, who told you to marry father? He become such a standard that all guys seems so ugly". I actually meant that as sarcasm. I didn't mean to use my dad, I just hope my mom realize that she was wrong. Maybe that had a negative effect. *sigh* My mother actually took it as a joke. She laugh so hard and said, "Yeah, it's your dad's fault. Why did I marry a handsome guy anyway? *laugh* Now all my in-laws would be ugly". When she put it that way, it does become a joke. My grandma joined in too and they started laughing.

         Well, since I have quite a lot of good-looking younger male cousins, we start saying how lucky their wife would be. And all the female in our family would be unlucky to have met such high standard looks is the male of our family. Now, any male in-laws would be defeated. Since they start going on and on, I decided to go away. I don't really want to start being an old lady by talking about this sort of things.

          I guess wherever is the same. Women out there are judged by looks. Since I'm a girl, I was always, ALWAYS told to be pretty etc. I didn't realize that males are also judged. I thought most guys would be judged by wealth. Haha. And good look is like a bonus charm. Maybe I was wrong. Who knew these middle-aged women look at all sort of things. Did they actually expect perfection? Is that why the love to sigh. I hope I don't get this bad disease. The sighing was bad enough.

My friend told me this before:

With one sigh, you lose a thousand happiness. With one (sincere) smile, you gain a thousand happiness.

So maybe, the looks part, you should not expect much. You don't want to sigh just because someone doesn't meet your expectation. Afterall, the saying goes "Don't judge a book by it's cover", right? We all deserve to be happier anyway.

Learner Driving License

Now, this felt weird~

          Hello there, everyone! Today's my sis birthday but I wished her late~ haha, what a bad sister =.=ll   Not that I could help it. No, it was entirely my fault.

Happy Birthday, Siena!!

          But actually I'm not gonna post about that. Wait, did my way of speaking sounds cruel? Che, since when do I know how to be all nicey doey. I think I'm fine the way I am.

          The other day, I had my driving class. I was nervous actually. Who knew learning would require nerve! But after the constant reminder of Pakcik Damur (so I wish to call him that) about the clutch, I've gotten the hang of it. He told me I was a fast learner too^^. Oh, cut with the praises!! Hehe~
   Euu, I sound so... what's the word?? Obnoxious, ne?
                 

"Praises are poison to the character"

Where have I heard that before?

 Back to the main topic:

         But, it didn't break-down the nervousness. Only increases my tension. But Ah! Then I met a familiar face! She didn't look my way but we were so close. I thought of greeting her but just by thinking about that made me not concentrate on what Pakcik Damur was saying. And it got to me, what if that pakcik gets mad because I wasn't paying attention? I thought, oh well, that girl doesn't even realize I'm there and she seems preoccupied with her lesson so it would do us both good not to start talking now right?

          So, with her being there, I decided not to show how nervous I am. After all, I love to act like everything was no big deal. Heh. Pretty disgusting, eh? But if there's anything I like about my character, this would be one of them. By pretending that things are not difficult, I would worked my ass of to make sure it won't look difficult. That would include change my way of thinking, my attitude towards that particular work and the strive for perfection. Although, it's a facade I have to put up with, usually when this part of me surfaces, my work tend to be extremely well done, exceeding people expectations. Too bad, it rarely shows up. So, I'm proud to have this side of me. It proves that "When there's a will, there's a way".

Though, it did not help with my lack of will to do anything.

          So, the lesson went on. I've gotten the hang of this whole driving business after an hour plus. Oh, and there's actually another familiar face that I saw there. But she's far from me I doubt she saw me. Well, actually they're my schoolmates. But we're not super close. Still, I though I should say hello. Just as Pakcik Damur decided that "That's all for today", he also decided that I'm driving us home. So, before I had the chance to tell him that I wanted to greet my friends, I was all "WHAT?!" It was my first day! He can't possibly want me to start driving on the road?

         Pakcik Damur then grinned and said, "What? It shouldn't be a big deal, right? I'm sure you'll do fine". No, I don't think I would do fine. No, no, no, was the only thing in my head as I stared at the pakcik, without answering. But the "Shouldn't be a big deal" were echoing in my head over and over and over again until the pitiful poor "no" wasn't heard anymore. So I smiled back at the pakcik and said, "Ok". He looked shocked that instant. Ah, so he thought I would say no. Then he continued, "It wouldn't be a problem because you have your Learner License with you. Are you sure you can do it?" If he wasn't a pakcik, I would have bite his head!! What are you doing, stepping on my pride?!! I'd look pathetic if I said "No" right then. So I just smile again and told him "I'm okay with it. After all basically my instructor is with me, right?" There you go! My counter attack.

          Pakcik Damur grinned again and said "Let's go".

Expecting anything? Well, it didn't really turn out as I planned in my head, the "Heh. It was nothing". It was something. Oh, the nerve!
But, it was okay. At leas Pakcik Damur said it was. And it's not like I made any mistake. All I did was drive slow.. very slow though. Haha, lame right? It was my first try! You can't expect me to be like those fantasy manga style character that seems to do everything perfectly! Hey, real life perfections need practice and perseverance.

So, I got home later and felt totally content!

Mawaru Penguindrum

It's review time^^

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Summary:


          The story revolves around the Takakura siblings; Kanba, Shouma, and Himari. At the start of the story, Kanba and Shouma received news that their sickly little sister had only a few months more to live. Thus, on the supposed day, they brought Himari to an aquarium. When exiting the aquarium, Shouma bought Himari a penguin-shaped hat. However, Himari was nowhere to be seen. That is, until they heard the crowd saying they saw a girl suddenly fainted somewhere outside. Taken to the hospital, Himari was confirmed dead.

          While the brothers were agonizing over fate, Himari's body turned alive due to some mysterious powers coming from the hat. The "hat" supposedly has extended Himari's life with certain condition to the brothers: Find the Penguindrum. With only a girl name; Ringo Oginome as their lead, the brothers started the search for Penguindrum in the game of transferring fate.


Thoughts

Hehe.. how was that? That the second time I did my own summary^^ Here are my thoughts on the story. BEWARE!! It contains SPOILERS~ Don't read it if you hate spoilers!!

          When the story started, it was fine.. and yeah, we all would be interested to know whether Himari would live and as to what the Penguindrum is.
But it gets a bit scary here:

           Ringo Oginome is a stalker, to which the Takakura brothers would soon found out. She's stalking a man named Keiju Tabuki; her late sister's boyfriend, coincidentally Shouma's teacher. And it seems that she followed every little detail written in her late sister, Momoka's diary. Due to parents trauma, Ringo thought it was her fate to be Momoka.
That seemed like some psychological problem, no? Yeah, we could say pity that girl, pity that girl. Haixx..
What shocked me was when Kanba kissed Himari while she was sleeping. WHAATTT??!!, I thought. That's like illegal!! or something. And I seriously thought that this story will develop into some kind of sister-complex kind of thing. Kinda' glad I didn't stick to that conclusion now..


           Well, then we'll found out that Momoka's diary IS the Penguindrum. So, the brothers frantically tried to get the diary. And then they found out that they're not the only one trying to get the diary. A girl name Masako Natsume will soon find every opportunity to disrupt Kanba's life. I thought, really thought she was one of Kanba's jealous or revengeful ex-girlfriend. But it turned out that she wasn't. Oh, and Ringo will be friends with Himari some time later after an incident with Tabuki's fiancee, Yuri Tokikago. Thus, she will also find out why the Takakura brothers are interested in Momoka's diary. A deal was then made. The brothers will help her get Tabuki and after her "Project-M" as written in the diary is completed, she'll hand the diary to them so that Himari would be saved.

          Since Kanba was working with some secret organization to earn Himari's medication bill, Shouma was dragged along with Ringo's plan. But Shouma's moral was against Ringo drastic action. Little by little, Ringo end up falling for Shouma. It was around that time she found out the Takakuras history. I must admit, their history aren't the worst. But due to their train of thoughts, it was probably the worst tragedy in the story. They thought that whatever that befall onto Himari was a punishment by fate. Momoka's death was due to the siblings parents crime. Shocked, Ringo consulted Tabuki. Tabuki on the other hand were informed of the case and together with Yuri, he secretly habour vengence. But later on, they made their peace.

          As the story progressed, Masako will aggressively try to get the Penguindrum for his younger brother, Maruo and win her elder brother, Kanba back to her. However, Kanba refused to return to the Natsume clan. Hehe, did I type to long? Now worries, by the way, I'm too lazy to give you all the suspense, so let me just say it clearly: Kanba was Kanba Natsume before he got adopted by the Takakura. That's the reason Masako was so angry. Maruo was dying yet Kanba was desperately trying to save a "stranger" life. And it seems that Masako held onto a promise Kanba made when they were children, that is, Kanba will protect them.

          Let's speed up,okay? On Himari side however,she found out that she was also an adopted child by the Takakura, choosen by Shouma.  Thus, not wanting anymore sacrifice, she readily accept her coming death. Around the time truth got to her, Shouma and Kanba had a terrible fight because Kanba was involved in the crime organization their parents were into. Kanba left the house. Shouma couldn't stand the guilt of his parents crime. He sent Himari to their uncle house. Himari, wanting to save Kanba, decided to go after him at the cost of her life.

          Manipulated by Sanetoshi Watase's ghost, Kanba burned the Penguindrum and followed the words of Sanetoshi to sacrifice the life of others. This kinda' despair me actually, because now they don't have a chance to save Himari. But then again, I never did expect Himari to live. After all, the dead should be dead, right? Well, this IS anime. And, it's fiction.

          So, while arguing with Shouma again, Ringo arrived. Sanetoshi laughed and claimed that he won against Momoka because they can't do anything without the Penguindrum. However, Ringo knew the "fated words" and thus use it to revive Himari. The Penguindrum is a fate-transfer book. So basically, Ringo's transferring her life to Himari. With that, her own life began to burn. But then, Shouma came and take over, claiming that everything started due to his parents crime, so he should be the one to atone for it. Kanba too, following the chain, disintegrates.

And with that, Maruo and Himari's life both extended. When Himari woke up later on, the pictures on the wall which was once Kanba, Shouma and Himari only had Himari in it.
     Yup, yup.. you're right. She had no recollection of having brothers at all. But then, she found that letter tucking out from her favourite bear.
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                                         V

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So that's it,.. pretty sad, eh?

Holiday^^ hehe

Gomen minna. I planned on updating this blog earliest this year but I got too down and low for stupid reason. Um,.. that is... I've turned 18 T^T... I'm soo sad.. I got a year older..

Don't give me that look! I've already confess that it's a silly stupid reason. Hmph!

          So, I missed saying "Happy New Year" to everyone, eh? Hehe, well.. you guys probably had tons of people greeting you at new year so it's fine right? Well, for those who didn't get a greeting.. here's my late greeting:

!!HAPPY NEW YEAR!!

Who cares if it's late??!! At least I greeted you guys.. *grins* hehe, don't be mad. AND DON'T LAUGH!!

          So, my December last year was spent rather happily, I guess^^. Don't really know how to describe my emotion though. It's not the kind of happy that makes me jump or very excited. But it doesn't make my mood foul or sad something, so I guess I ought to say I'm happy^^.

          I went to Jakarta for the holidays. I thought at first, Jakarta? I rather stay home than going anywhere. It's annoying to accompany my mom and grandma shopping after all. They took hours and hours and hours and hours until they drained all my energy to even smile. Oh, and I'm exaggerating by the way. But it's fine if you believe me though. Haha.

          But I guess, it wasn't that annoying after all. My dad doesn't took us only to the mall or bazaar. We went to Mini Park, in which I don't remember where. I doubt it's in Jakarta. Then we went to pick strawberries^^. I must say, picking strawberries are fun, but I feel bad for not actually eating it. They're too sour for my tongue. Oh, I don't know where the strawberry farm is too. I'm sorry, I can only remember a bit cause I was sleeping in the car due to the effect of the drug I took for my cold.

          We also went to Bandung^^. I remember it because I eat really delicious food there. However, mom got her migraine attack so we couldn't stay for long. Mas Iwan, the driver took us back to the hotel early that day. I don't really remember the name of the food I ate..... Ok, I'm ashamed.. I couldn't remember almost all names... But the food is rally delicious!!! Oh then we went to factory outlet something because apparantly, my dad wanted to buy us some leather products. Bla bla.. I'm not THAT interested in leather products so I don't care mush about it.. Oh, forgive me for not having an interest in shopping beside for shoes and high heels~ HAHA

          Where else did we go to? I can't seem to remember anything beside food...... T^T Well, at least I can remember where we stayed at. We stayed in Atlantic Centuary Hotel, I think the spelling's right. And I love the buffet breakfast!!!!! The warm milk is especially good!!! And the milk, and the milk, and... WAIT!!! I was thinking about all  the food I ate but now everything in my head turns to MILK!! How did this happen?? T^T Looks like I can't share what I ate to you guys.. Well, consider yourself lucky coz now you don't have to drool. HAHAHAHAHA

Urgh, now some dairy cow is occupying my mind..


Since all I can think now is cow cow cow and more cows, I guess I should stop typing before I bore you.


Farewell, until next time^^